I'm born ('88), raised and currently living near Munich. I'm married with two teen kids. I spent my hole teen- and young adult years trying to figure out "how to do it right", leaded by the will to understand everything down to the roots. I read every book about personality development, psychology, alternative healing technics and spirituality that I got my hands on since I was 13 years old. Always driven between guilt and shame for beeing and doing "wrong" and the motivation to do it "right". My physical symptoms since this young age are tenseness, wandering in my body and becoming more over the years... started with migraine (9yo) severe low back pain (15yo), later neck and shoulders, since some years my jaw. I know my body is showing the tenseness in my mind, all the worries, the fear, the pressure, the guilt, the shame, the controll. I've known this for years but I haven't really been able to change things. The psychological effects are depression, emotional burnout, social anxiety. Crying while writing this... By raising my kids I noticed childhood wounds and themes attending my live, trying to cope and heal them. I tend to oscillate between extremes, disordered eating behavior, vegetarian, vegan, "normal", full spiritual, yoga, none at all, identities, relationships, career. 10 years ago I thought I found myself, I'm ready, I made a training as a naturopath (in german "Heilpraktiker") and opend my own practice (psychosomatic kinesiology), tryed to put myself out, in social media too. But my anxiety and overhelm broke me down, I gave up. At the moment I'm back working an office job, 20 h a week. At the beginning of the year I got my ADHS diagnosis, I fought years for it. I'm pretty sure, I'm on the autustic spectrum too, but getting diagnosis is really diffucult. I'm trying ADHS medication since march, at the moment I think it ist heplful. I think I'm getting "better" in recognising my feelings and needs and beeing gentle with myself. I see myself and my journey in your content and I'm grateful for you beeing just as you are, to teach us, that it would be ok to be just how and whoa we are.