Today while I was talking to one of my friends she called me an attention seeker because I was having a craving for alcohol which I I haven’t drank in a while and she thought I was doing it for attention I then explain how getting paid today is a trigger for me seeing my son who passed shpula tirned 47 months old today and i was grtting intense cravings she said “you gotta stop telling people you wanna buy alcohol. Why would you buy alcohol when you’re 19 months sober?” Which was a valid question I then said to her “No I’m not an attention seeker thanks you have no idea how hard to it is to stay clean nor how hard it is to stay sober don’t come at me saying I’m a attention seeking I’m doing my darnest to stay alive in a mind that wants to die” she said “Still we both know ur not gonna drink so stop trying to worry people it’s not hard not to drink I do it every day just smoke weed and cigarettes” then I said “well you’re not an addict I am” she replied with “neither are you hence why you don’t drink you’re an ex addict now” and that was when I realize she wasn’t gonna get the point that cravings are cravings and they don’t need validation for them to happen I also realize she wasn’t going to understand why I was coming from being an addict because she didn’t understand that I was still an addict even though I didn’t use or drink and I told her “she was pissing me off And I couldn’t cope I was gonna remove myself instead of explaining it to someone who clearly didn’t get it” she said “what I’m pissing you off cause I told you not to drink” I said “ no you just don’t understand addiction and how things work for us” I didn’t have the energy to explain it to her that addiction doesn’t discriminate and neither does Recovery but even in even recovery you’re still an addict you’re just Recovering then I sent the quote “for most of us sobriety is not a one and done decision it is one we have to make over and over again” she then replied saying “ buy the alcohol then if you want you’re old enough but you won’t be ruining anyone’s life but your own” I said ”it’s not the point it’s a craving” she said “so fight it your strong just don’t drink it’s your choice make the right one don’t you have AA support?” I said idk if there is AA support in town she suggested buying myself a gift so I said I might try that she ended the convo saying “my dad was an alcoholic and it killed him” I replied “my dads an alcoholic too and it might kill him as well” then she said good night her ending the conversation like that gave me a better understanding of why she was acting the way she was when she was criticizing my addiction and Recovery weak points i’ve come to the realization that most likely if she doesn’t understand addiction because she hasn’t been to it and it’s probably best jusl disengage conversations about Recovery with her because she doesn’t understand and would probably be the best of the block her for the hurtful criticism about my recovery ❤️‍🩹

Asking for a friend, just kidding completely 💯 asking for myself: You need to put yourself in a safe mindset, what’s your “routine”? Or safety plan? Or relapse prevention plan? Whichever terminology suits…

This is a SUPPORT REQUEST to my community here: When you need to put yourself in a safe mindset, what’s your “routine”? Or safety plan? Or relapse prevention plan? Whichever terminology suits…

Hello Everyone, Myself Kalaiarasan, I'm sober from past 16 days after 10 years of alcohol addiction.....

Tonight i officially Made 19 consecutive Months Clean from All Hard Drugs I've been fighting a long battle with severe clinical depression, bordering personality disorder traumatic memories, flashbacks, anxiety attacks, and night terrors etc since I was 14. In a desperate attempt to find solace, I turned to substance use drugs and sometimes alcohol to dull the pain and momentarily feel better. This has been my journey from 2017 to 2023 My world was turned upside down in Sept 2021 when I lost my son. I struggled to cope with the pain and turned to substance abuse and alcohol. This took a toll on my mental health, leading to multiple hospitalizations and stays in mental health housing. Despite the support, I continued to struggle and found myself homeless in 2022. I settled into a toxic living situation to avoid homelessness, but eventually found myself back on the streets, battered and struggling with addiction. Hitting rock bottom in 2023, I checked into a psychiatric ward and began to rebuild. With their care, I started to heal and even found a comfortable apartment near the hospital. November of 2023, I had a terrifying experience that could have ended in tragedy. I overdosed, lost consciousness, and was administered two doses of NARCAN to revive me. At the hospital, a nurse informed me that my drug levels were extremely high, putting me at risk of alcohol poisoning. What's more, I had arrived at the hospital by ambulance, alone, which sent me into an emotional spiral, making me realize just how close I came to losing my life to addiction. My journey with addiction has been long and challenging, but meeting my now ex boyfriend online marked a turning point. His concern for my well-being and faith in my ability to change inspired me to start my recovery journey in December 2023. Since December My journey towards healing and recovery has been challenging, but I'm proud to say that I've made tremendous progress. I've been living in my own townhouse for over a year now, and I've been clean from hard substances and sober from alcohol and self-harm for over 18 months. I'm committed to continuing this journey and finding healthier ways to cope with my emotions. The healing process has been a peculiar progression, filled with unexpected twists and turns. As I navigate the challenges of getting and staying clean and sober, I'm reminded of the importance of perseverance. Losing a child is one of the most painful experiences I've ever faced, but I continue to push forward, driven by my love for my angel son and my commitment to my own well-being. We Do Recover One Day At A Time All Day Everyday Just For Today Process I Recover Out Loud Because I Almost Died Silently Myself