How i am back normal to myself since last week when I end m relationship but I still care for him that I want to be friend with him but what he told me last felt like he wanted me to suicide myself by telling me I should give my life to god because I don't go out of the house or do other activity why will he want that for me because I didn't want is manipulate or his control so last night he couldn't speak because he block me so this morning he decide to unblock me and tell me that I take everything the opposite of what he saying but it is not true and I decide to block him . Because after one week not talking to him my body change back to myself because there was to much red flag. I see a big different in me from 3 years ago when the level of anxiety was high that now I still have it but i can control it. My life is so wonderful and calm now because I know if I will continue talking to him that my body will always be frustrated because he brought me down every time. I am better be alone than being in a toxic place.