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Is it crazy to think that doing inner work could be the key to shifting outer circumstances? Recently I put my house in Austin Texas up for sale… I’ve had a shift in values over the last few years and as a result have wanted to own less materialistic things Owning an investment house became mental bandwidth that included finding renters, paying for repairs and high property taxes out here in Texas As a result about 5 months ago I decided… I am going to SELL it and be free of it At the suggestion of the real estate agent I put in about 40K to make it perfect with the intention that it will sell fast and I’d get back what I put in After the repairs and upgrades in February we put it on the market For weeks there was a lot of buzz with it People seeing it saying they liked it, open houses, etc However no offers came through in the first month And to be honest…. The market in Austin has been slow and down for the last few years Was I energetically attracted to it selling and holding energy that was blocking it from selling? If the outer reality is a reflection of the inner, what do I need to shift? In that frustration I was doing some inner reflection and had some big realizations… The way I related to the house was similar emotion to childhood I felt trapped by the house… it felt "not fair" (very similar to childhood energy where I felt stuck with controlling step mom) I bought when the market was growing and then it tanked I felt the burden of the house and that I was STUCK in it And NOW it’s not selling and I still feel trapped I was reading a book one night on healing the inner child and had a huge realization I felt "victim" to the situation. I was carrying the energy of this is happening TO ME The house was a reflection of how I felt about it and how I was showing up I also realized I was waiting to feel free ONCE the house sold So in this awareness I made a choice before falling asleep that night… I am not a victim. I can handle it. I will do what I need to do and be patient. God/the divine can take the wheel

Lately, I've been experiencing almost the opposite of what I used to feel. I'm navigating major life changes, difficult decisions, ongoing legal matters, family challenges, questions about where I'll live next, and some surprisingly disappointing behaviour from people I've helped and supported for decades. On top of that, my to-do list has become so ambitious it's starting to look like a military operation. 😅 A few years ago, this combination would have turned my nervous system into a full-time theme park. Stress rollercoaster. Overthinking ferris wheel. Catastrophising haunted house. Open 24 hours a day. And in control mode. Instead, I find myself wondering: "Am I crazy?" Because despite everything, I feel calm. Deeply calm. I sleep well. I think clearly. I don't have endless waves of unnecessary emotions hijacking my day. I enjoy my coffee. I enjoy the sunshine. I enjoy the people who show up with love. And underneath it all, there is this quiet certainty that everything is already working itself out. Not because I know exactly how. Not because the ground beneath me isn't moving. But because I've discovered that my sense of safety no longer depends on the ground standing still. I can pause. I can observe. I can choose. I can act. And then I trust and let go. The best way I can describe it is this: It feels like watching a movie after you've already seen the ending. The plot still twists. The characters still surprise you. There are moments of uncertainty and tension. But somewhere deep inside, you know everything turns out exactly as it should. So you stop gripping the armrests. Simply unwind, observe, and savor the full life experience instead of fixating solely on the dramatic moments. Maybe this is what happens when the nervous system finally learns that peace isn't the absence of challenges. Peace is what becomes possible when the body stops treating every challenge as a threat. ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ 🍾💫 So today I'm celebrating the new version of me that somehow landed softly, gracefully, and with surprisingly little turbulence in this chapter of life. 🙏❣️