Recently something horrible happened to me... something I thought I had already healed from and overcome, but once again the universe BOOM put me to the test đȘ I want to share it here because I know it can help many of you, because the truth is we are always in constant progress, and because we truly need to be more compassionate with ourselves đ
I come from a divorce that broke me two years ago, one where I had to learn to stop pleasing everyone, to stop putting everyone else above me, and to have a voice even when I was afraid to speak.
Iâm currently selling what used to be our home, and a buyer came along who, from day one, had terrible energy. Wanting to close this chapter quickly, I ignored some red flags. This woman yelled at me, threatened me, and I just let it happen in order to âkeep the peaceâ of the transaction and the sale ... at the expense of my own peace of mind and what I knew was right.
In the end, this woman backed out one day before closing, and I felt awful. Right then, Iâve felt like vomiting, Iâve cried a lot, and Iâve felt terrible for not trusting what my intuition had clearly told me. But that wasnât even the worst part, the worst was when she called me saying âpoor you, a single mother,â and that sheâd give me half the deposit. Iâm telling you, there are people out there with bad intentions who donât care about anything and have zero integrity.
Weâve had to go into a legal fight over the deposit, but beyond the money, this situation hit me hard because I felt like I had failed myself. Deep down I always knew this deal wouldnât work, yet I let it happen.
Now, though, I can talk about it from compassion instead of anger toward myself and thatâs why I can share it. We are always healing, and the tests life throws at us are tough, but each time we gain more awareness. I canât compare the Lorena who allowed so many things in her marriage with the Lorena who allowed this woman to treat her that way, Iâm proud of myself because every mistake Iâve made has shaped me into the woman I am today.
And I hope you, if youâre reading this, are proud of yourself too, even if youâre going through your own trial by fire right now. Iâm sending love to all of you đ