Spiritual information overload

I don’t know if someone among you have experienced this, but I wannna share it. For the last year I was working on myself internally a I was watching all this spiritual content and reading spiritual books. It helped me a ton that for sure but on the other hand I was so filled with information that it became living hell. I was so insecure if I everything doing right, if I integrating all what I learned and I was thinking so much about those informations that I was like kinda beating myself that I dont understand everything and also I had big desire to understand every spiritual idea and concept that it became obsession and my selfworth started to depend on how I understand it and what can I do more, how can I use all of my potential, am I doing it right, what I can do better, do I meditate right, do I meditate enough, do I know enough and also I was feeling shame because I know all this information but I’m not living it, I’m just drawning in this content… I wanted to let go of it all that time, but I had insecureties even in letting go itself. So how can I let go of insecurieties about letting go?… I did radical desicion and I basiclly decided to “let go of spirituality”, which was basiclly letting go of spiritual ego. I stopped listen, read and watch all the spiritual content and I even stopped meditate. The only meditation I did was just me with the candle flame doing frame technique. After month I’m slowly returning to the meditation but I’m not gonna learn new spiritual ideas because I’m still fragile in this area of life. I feel like not many people talk about this, so I wanned to share it. If you have something to say about it or if you experienced it and you have some advice let me know👾👾✌️❤️

PS: I have learned that thinking about spiritual information isn’t spiritual at all. Spiritual is learning how to not think

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Spiritual information overload