Hi everyone, thanks for taking the time to read this. It’s been a while since I posted, but I wanted to share something personal and hopefully get some advice.
Lately, I’ve felt stuck and drained. Between work and personal life, I feel out of place, like I don’t belong where I am anymore. I stay because it is familiar, but now it feels like I can’t keep going this way.
I’ve worked at a hospital for seven years, and while I’ve learned a lot, I’m questioning what my real calling is. Deep down, I want to spread love, peace, and positivity. But the environment around me feels heavy, and as an empath I absorb it. Over time, I think it’s made me negative too. I can’t remember the last time I felt genuinely happy just because of ME. Not because of a job or a relationship, but simply because I loved who I was without worrying about what anyone else thought.
Maybe working overnight 12-hour shifts and not having a proper routine has played a part, but the bigger issue is realizing how much I lost myself without noticing. I’m asking: how do I raise my energy again? How do I stay true to myself, set boundaries, and focus on love when I’m surrounded by negativity?
I know this job isn’t serving me anymore, but I feel scared to leave. If I let go, where do I go next? I also don’t put myself out there as much as I should. Do I believe in myself? I’m very discerning with people—if their energy feels off, I don’t want to connect. Surface-level conversations don’t feel right for me; I crave depth.
And now I’m questioning: what is the true way of love? I thought I knew, but lately I feel unsure.