For anyone affected by addiction/alcoholism

( gentle disclaimer I am aware of Tradition 10 & 11 I chose this group as it is closed and safe).

As a former active addict I understand the horrendous pain I have inflicted on others around me and it’s not the fault of those looking in to be ignorant to the spirits of alcohol and drugs and the dangerous rampage they cause. For the loved one looking in the only way is to eventually disassociate for the loved one looking out the only way is to run and hide in isolation with occasional outbursts on those around them, then back to isolation. I loathe hurting my friends and family in and out of active addiction. The Greed, Gluttony, Vanity, Lust, Sloth, Envy and my personal favourite Wrath take over.

I understand why those around me have to step away as painful as it can be and if anyone reading this post has had to deal with addiction and or alcoholism as a family member I am truly sorry and I understand that I do have a duty to the choices I make.

I needed to acknowledge the issue, ask for help again and again to get abstinent so I can then work on a spiritual defence over the first decision to pick up…

…after that…

…CHOICE is taken from me as the addict.

I’m back in the phenomenon of craving and the obsession of the mind.

I destroy myself and everyone around me.

It’s hard to be an addict but it may be even harder to watch drugs and alcohol rob people like me of choice.

By the grace of God I am clean and can make choices to change. Evolve. I do it here with Aaron’s work and I do other things and it brings me closer to love and strength from above.

If you knew my actual history you wouldn’t believe that I would have got here or even be alive. CHANGE IS POSSIBLE WITH OPEN-MINDEDNESS, HONESTY AND WILLINGNESS on both sides of the problem.

If I can change anyone can. There is hope for us we gotta see it though and not only admit there is a problem with our drinking but a problem with our thinking.

My heart goes out to anyone who has dealt with alcoholism and addiction on either side.

International Marathon Meeting below runs 24hrs a day 7 days a week. For loved ones you have this link to find a plethora of help https://al-anon.org/al-anon-meetings/

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For anyone affected by addiction/alcoholism