Day 8 - Breathwork (Extended Version)

Finally felt led to do the extended breath-work meditation Aaron added to the Magnetic Challenge course, and WOW. Started with the intention of a "breakthrough." I went through an array of emotions. I did this lying down on my bed, and my dog joined me at first by lying right on top of me with her toy. At first, I thought I wouldn't be "doing it right" with her there, moved her to my side, and then realized I just needed to embrace wherever she wanted to sit (let go). Then I shifted to a supreme sense of gratitude and love for my dog. She's my best friend and companion! I am so lucky! Next, sheer anger (mostly about someone at my work not taking the time to see what needs to be done to get a project done, when I offered, because she thought it would be too much for her brain to see the old analytics product). Then pure sadness that needed to be let out. Lots. Felt very needed! The next part is trippy. I felt the anger of giving birth over and over? Not pain. Just anger about it. I have never given birth. Maybe I did many times in past lives, if that is even a real thing, or maybe just a message I needed to hear? Either way, I think maybe the message is, do you really even want to have children? This is something I go back and forth on... so this thought that came up during the meditation was interesting. Almost as if a message to "release" the pressure of feeling this time constraint, I have put on myself to have kids. Entertaining that thought, it felt like a relief! 🙏 Next, I asked for God's love and got the thought "It's inside of you." Then I thought of the bible verse Jesus said, "The kingdom of God is within you." Next, it felt good to imagine my higher self (happy and dressed in all white) becoming me, now. Thought of my grandpa calling me by my nickname when we got to the ancestor part. Thought of him saying, "It's ok." Overall, the "love part" came and went for me throughout. I hope I can break through that fully soon! It was a long meditation, so I processed a lot. The music and Aaron's guidance were so helpful and encouraging. I definitely feel calmer and no longer stressed. Plus, my love for my dog definitely grew. lol Maybe that is a side effect of it, gratefulness, and you just want to show more love!

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