Day 6 · High Vibe Tribe

Day 6

I did the video on breathing. I felt guided to lay on the floor. When the second question was asked, "what do I fear?" the answer came quickly: Dying. Many years ago in my first breathwork experience, I saw myself in my most recent past earth life. I felt horrified and have been dealing with that glimpse ever since. I won't go into all the details. The upshot was I was executed once they found out I was gay; a single bullet to the small of my back. Significantly, I was filled with mortal fear at the time. I carried that over to this lifetime from birth, having only five years in spirit before coming back.

I know we are spirit doing these physical bodies for inner cleansing purposes, discarding exactly the blockages Aaron speaks of. I know we are eternal beings, eternal mind, ageless, deathless. Somehow this does not matter to the energy of mortal fear in my mind. I felt surprised that this is having a life of its own in my subconscious, after all the work I've done to release it. And it makes sense that this would be the snag to being open to love. Fear negates love, denies love, fears love. I am willing today to allow the universe to guide me through the conclusive release of this fear in my deeper mind. No wonder I have felt half-alive most of this lifetime. This has got to go if I am to reclaim my full aliveness. And what is a lifetime here without love? I mean, what would be the point?

So, I don't know the how, as usual, but I do know the what; it's time for this panic in extremis to be released. I accept the help of the universe in shifting this energy into its opposite. The Love that created me knows how to do this and knows my part in the process. I am willing.

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