Day 2 · High Vibe Tribe

Day 2

I realized that the three most common limiting beliefs in love did not happen to me. Which made me soul search as to what event did happen to me to change my beliefs in love. I needed an extra day to think on this. I am evidently an outlier, but an event with a guy that happened to me when I was 15 changed everything for me. I was told in a relationship that I was "not aggressive enough" because I was the good girl. That made me think that men only valued me for "other things" and would only date me for that reason. Which led to my guy friends taking advantage of me, always cheating on their girlfriends with me, but telling me I was the most amazing woman in the world. I was always everybody's best kept secret, which led me to believe I was not worthy or pretty enough or good enough to be shown off in public as a girlfriend. Which led to settling into 2 marriages with guys I probably would have never dated, because I finally got the attention in public...But one ended up being gay and one abused me. I was always the perfect girl friend for my guy friends. So I'm trying to change my belief that I am worthy of being respected and introduced to his world and I don't need to be anyone's secret. Real love would not keep me secret. I'm also struggling with the fine line of being vulnerable/naive. I always believed people had the best intentions and so I opened my heart almost too much.

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