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Day 1 homework for Shift

First I will start by saying I am a bit behind due to having a terrible cold and got a concussion and still healing from that. But as for Day 1 I really understood after tonight's lesson that I have been in the stuck mode now for a few years of learning and recognizing my patterns and being angry at my Mom sometimes but then forgiving the patterns I learned from having abuse step parents who tried to separate me from my real parents. I forgive her and am letting go of the friends and acquaintances who do nothing but use me to make themselves feel better by stepping all over me. Yet when they are doing well, I either don't hear from them or they brag about going to events we had planned to attend together. I actually blocked a couple of people, one person, I will call Ancy who loves to monopolize the conversation and say no to me about getting together everytime I suggest it. Then brags when she goes our with others. I am tired of hearing her complain and wanting my advice but then never making time for me as a friend. It's sad to end a long term relationship but when she admits using others it's clear she uses me too. I have another old friend I have known for 32 years who when I finally told her I was tired of being stood up or canceled on she tried to gaslight me saying I never stayed in touch while overseas, but I did, so I am done with that toxic relationship as well. I felt it was my responsibility to stay friends with these damaged people but they offer no or little support in my future and try to cut down my dreams or compliment me then show little respect for my time. I am allowed to set boundaries so I can feel less stress over their problems and instability. I will love them from afair but need space to heal from those patterns with them. It's sad when you realize when you must break up with a friend to make room for better friends and energy. I am ready to live beyond the old patterns.i have aware now now, for a couple of years but still stuck until this week just before I watched Aaron talk. I have been trying so hard to change at my core but I was in a codependent relationship with my ex for over 20 years. It's hard to learn to love oneself and put me first. But I am close. Very close. No more being in the loop of shame as Aaron put it. I don't think I have time try the AI because I need to watch the other 3 days before they go away. Thank you Aaron. You are the best. Sincerely, Elizabeth Kim

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Day 1 homework for Shift