A Personal Update - Learning to Honor Myself and Walk Away

I wanted to come back and share an update with the group. I haven’t had many places to share this journey, and this community has been part of helping me get to a better place.

Alongside the Magnetic Love Reset, I also pursued other studies and did a lot of deep reflection to understand what had been playing out in my life.

For over a decade, there was someone in my life. At one point I did find the strength to walk away and poured all of my energy into rebuilding myself. Years later he came back, and I opened the door again. That time, I spent five years in a relationship that brought me very little peace.

Looking back, my body was telling me the truth the entire time. It was telling me I wasn’t safe, that something wasn’t right. But I ignored those signals. I had grown up believing that your word means something, and when he asked me to go all in, I took that seriously. I kept blaming myself and trying harder, believing the problem must be me.

In five years, I never experienced him truly showing up in my life. We never spent a day together doing something simple like going on a date, going out, or sharing time in the real world. I was living in a story in my mind, holding onto the version of him I had first met the kind and charming one.

Whenever I questioned why he never spent time with me, I was told I was complaining. Whenever I tried to walk away, my phone would suddenly be filled with messages.

I wanted a family. I wanted children. I held onto that dream and convinced myself that if I wanted love and a family, maybe I just had to endure the pain and stay quiet.

A year ago I made a major change. I changed my number, moved, and disappeared from his life. During that time I rebuilt myself. I became a founder. My career flourished. My health improved. Abundance started flowing into my life in ways I hadn’t experienced before.

Eventually he found me again through email. This time I was stronger, but I still had more work to do internally. I realized something important: it wasn’t actually him that I loved. It was the vision of the life I wanted a family, a husband, a shared future.

When he reached out again, he said he wanted to finally get to know me and spend time with me. I asked him one simple question: “Am I a sure thing in your life?”

After five years of asking me to go all in, the answer was still no. He said he needed more time to understand my ways.

In that moment everything became clear.

I’m sharing this because I am still healing from the choices I made, and I hold myself accountable for the ways I abandoned my own instincts.

But I am moving forward.

I still believe something beautiful is possible in life. Maybe I will experience a deep, healthy love one day. What I do know now is this

Honor yourself.Your body is your greatest guidance system listen to it.Never silence your emotions.Know your worth.

And when someone shows you through their actions where you stand in their life, believe them.

Time is precious. Fall deeply in love with yourself first.

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