Sometimes you don't know what to do; you feel that you want to do something but don't know what. You feel the urge to do something, but you don't know what. Doing nothing and sitting still brings restlessness to your body, restlessness to your head, restlessness to your mind, so it is actually not an option. So you just start tidying and cleaning your house, or call a friend. Yes, seeking distraction is what most of us do. The mobile phone has probably been number one for the last few years. Everywhere you look, most people are on their mobiles, with no eye for the people around them and the environment as a whole. There are probably more people addicted to that thing than we would like to think. But if that distraction isn't enough and that restless feeling persists, we turn to other addictions such as alcohol, drugs, sex, etc., just to stop feeling that feeling. But it feels too unpleasant that we are too afraid to take a good look at it and investigate what it is and where it comes from. Just try doing it. Most people get the chance for this every day; even if they try their best to stay busy and seek distraction, there are always a few moments when the feeling of emptiness knocks at your door. The more you try not to feel it, the stronger it comes back each time. You don't want to feel it, and by constantly trying to find distractions, you deny that part of yourself. But if you sometimes would take that step and investigate what it is, that unpleasant, restless feeling. Does it feel like you are missing something, a void that you need to fill with something? This is why people constantly try to fill these moments with other activities such as those mentioned earlier, alcohol, drugs, sex, relationships etc. to fill that gap. This is also one of the reasons why many people struggle to be alone. We think that we are the self of the personality formed from birth. Shaped by our character traits, opinions, and beliefs. We identify with this as the 'I', which feels like who you are. Only that, and nothing more. And what about that emptiness you feel? Why do you keep experiencing it despite doing so many fun things in your life? Could there perhaps be a reason for it being there after all? Just sit down quietly and try not to push it away or seek distraction, but simply let it be there completely. Perhaps you feel a lot of resistance, or become anxious or nervous. Just let it be there completely; think of it this way: what is the worst that can happen? Try to embrace it and identify with it fully. From the perspective of Buddhism, among others, the formed so called self is seen as the ego, and that emptiness is the greater something or nothing. That you must let go of the ego because it is precisely the ego that is the unreal, and it is the emptiness in which everything originates. The mutual interdependence of emptiness implies that everything is interconnected.

Sometimes you have those days when everything is blah. When you don't feel like doing anything or don't want to interact with anyone. But you still have to leave the house to do some grocery shopping. On the way, you walk reluctantly towards the store, with your eyes fixed on the ground. You happen to look up briefly because someone is walking towards you and you want to be absolutely sure you don't bump into each other. The moment you make eye contact, the person says hello in a friendly manner. Somewhat surprised and taken aback, you say hello back at the last moment. You notice that your eyes are now slightly less fixed on the ground and you are looking around a bit more. Arriving at the store, you grab a cart outside. Just as you are about to enter the store, someone else arrives at the entrance at the same time. This person smiles kindly and says, "Please go ahead." You smile back and say, "Thank you." Feeling a bit more cheerful, you walk through the store and pick up the items you need. Arriving at the checkout, there is a long line. But you are already feeling more okay, you shrug your shoulders, and you even let someone go ahead of you who only has a few items. Arriving at the cashier, you smile kindly, whereupon she spontaneously strikes up a short conversation with you about someone who was ahead of you and who tried to teach her a few words of a foreign language. Once outside, you are cheerful and aware of your surroundings. You want to return your shopping cart but see someone walking up and offer it to this person. They are grateful and walk towards the store with a smile. This is a beautiful example of the wonderful effect the ripple effect can have, not only for yourself but also for other people. Often, we are the ones who have a positive effect on others. But sometimes, when you are having a bad day yourself, there are others who provide you with some positive energy. My personal motto is ‘lead by example,’ but of course, everyone has a bad day now and then, which is okay too. I find it very beautiful to see that the universe lets you experience that you get back what you give. And all those expressions like, ‘You reap what you sow,’ and ‘what goes around comes around,’ and of course, the meaning of karma. It almost seems like a universal law...

The moment you are born, you are empty and clean. Without preferences, opinions, judgments, and even without any thoughts. But as you grow as a baby, you learn things; you notice when you cry, you get food or something to drink, and your diaper gets changed. This is how the first conditionings are formed. And how your parents treat you, how they feel, and the energy they bring with them and radiate will gradually shape you as a person. As a baby, you are so open to influences and energy from your environment, especially from your parents. You copy certain facial expressions and learn certain skills. As you get older you develop preferences, opinions, etc. As a child, you join a sport that you like, or rather, think you like. After all, how many of us, as children, take up a sport that one of our parents also likes or does, or perhaps because a friend does it? You form opinions about other children based on the norms and values ​​you have adopted from your parents, or opinions from other peers. And so, as you get older, there are all kinds of external influences that shape and condition you as a person. And the "choices" you make stem less and less from who you were at birth, and more and more from your formed new self (ego). That ego, with which you identify more and more, consequently becomes stronger and claims a right to exist within you. And it will do whatever it takes to continue existing. For more and more people, depending on how strongly that ego has been shaped over the years, a feeling or little voice will emerge from deep inside. This indicates that something is wrong not only with that formed little self, but also with the people around you and the world. You come into increasing conflict with everything, and more and more resistance arises. These are often the first signals for people to start delving into topics of personal development and/or spirituality. Hopefully, along this path, you will encounter one of the most important philosophical questions: ‘who am I?’ or ‘what am I?’. A good way to gain more insight into this is primarily to ask the opposing question: ‘who or what am I not?’. Try doing this, peeling of layer by layer, examining, analyzing, and being critical to see what remains at the end of the line and who and what you really are…

You might wonder why self-healing and why embark on that endlessly long path of personal growth. Who among us can truly say they fully accept themselves and are okay with everything they feel and experience? Most of us are not there yet, and as a result, we keep attracting situations into our lives that remind us of this. That reminds us that there are still unprocessed traumas and old wounds that need to be healed. Time and time again, you are given the opportunity to do this. If you don't, you simply get the chance again a while later in a similar experience. That is why many people live in circles and keep asking themselves (if they are even aware of it) why the same thing keeps happening to them every time. It seems that the universe, consciousness energy, life, God, or whatever beautiful name you have come up with for it, is asking you to look at something and giving you the opportunity to deal with a situation differently. Just look back at your own life and try to recognize if there are certain similar situations or patterns that keep repeating themselves. Often, these situations are related to traumas and wounds from the past, largely from childhood. During childhood, you are often not yet strong enough and do not yet possess the tools to fully experience intense situations that evoke intense feelings and emotions. This is because it is too overwhelming for your system, causing them to be repressed. It can also be that we experience a lack of access to our parents or caregivers regarding our emotions and feelings because they are not physically or emotionally available. This creates a sense of insecurity, which is also a traumatic experience and brings with it all kinds of blockages. Unhealthy patterns and conditionings arise from these traumas, wounds, and blockages. I will explain how to recognize and break these in the video "Recognizing and Breaking Patterns." Not fully experiencing or expressing feelings and emotions, and repressing them, causes blockages and contamination on multiple energetic levels. This is because the energetic charge of the situations and associated feelings and emotions are still present. When this is not healed, this will eventually manifest as physical complaints or even illness. Most people are only aware of a physical body and are unaware that there are several energetic layers. These layers transmit signals from the higher to the lower layers, with the physical body at the bottom. In the videos about the different energetic layers, I will delve deeper into this and explain how they work, as well as how to connect with and cleanse them.

Hello beautiful people. First and foremost I want to welcome you to this community group, I hope you will find some information that will help you on your path of personal growth and self healing. This community is made for people who want to reconnect to the person they really are, who are done with being stuck and reacting from the same patterns over and over again. For people who want to experience more self love, compassion, peace, creativity, self-confidence and alignment and for people who are ready to heal themselves and put in the work. The methods to get there are not that difficult, but it can require a lot of self-consciousness and practice and doing them can be quite challenging and painful. But I can promise you, through my own experiences, it’s really worth it and will bring you so much peace and joy. But more about this in the video ‘Healing yourself’. This community is also for people who want to bring some light and healing energy into this world. We can complain about how shitty this world is and only do things that benefit ourselves. And of course if one of those things is healing ourselves we bring more light into this world and the people around us automatically. But we also know we cannot change people directly no matter how much we would like to. What we can do is change the world and the people in another way by shining our light and energy together. So that people, even if it’s just for a second that they experience a glimpse of that energy of who they really are, could possibly be the beginning of change for them, like a seed that’s been planted and it’s ready to bloom. We can do this individually but doing this together the light and energy will be so much stronger and will reach so many more people. More about that in the post ‘Why group meditations?’. And lastly this community is a place to meet like-minded people, to learn and get inspired from and by each other. I hope you enjoy and feel open sharing and expressing yourself but I’m asking you to follow the rules of the community otherwise I’ll have no other option than to kick you out. And if you join I would really like you to introduce to the community. Thank you so much!