Falling down can lead to flying! · Foundations of Ascension

Falling down can lead to flying!

When I was diagnosed with extreme anxiety, I thought I was one among the very few with this rare “disorder”. With talk therapy and a lot of self work, I’m learning a lot in my healing journey. The first being, anxiety has become like, “hey you had an anxiety attack today? Me too!”.

And I got into more anxiety just by thinking about the routines that I’m not following to overcome anxiety! Everything is just connected to how I feel. I thought breathe work, yoga, meditation, a proper diet, journaling was the solution… all these did help me but all these just let me get past the surface. The real work is identifying my relationship with myself.

The root cause is just one thing. Just one thought, like that one spark of fire that burns down a huge dense forest. Like the smell that comes out of a rat. No matter how hard I try to put out the fire, no matter how hard I try to make the room smell good, without putting out the source, without throwing the dead rat away, I’m not solving the problem.

One Simple thing I do these days is, asking questions. I feel like crying. Why? Because I feel low. Why? Because someone said my dressing sense is not up to the mark. Why did they say that? I don’t know. Does their opinion on you matter? No. My opinion on myself matters. So what is my opinion on my dressing?

If my answer is “needs improvement”. Good! solution found. Let’s focus on that.

If my answer is “my dressing is good”. Great, so I dont have to worry about somebody’s opinion.

If my answer is “I’m confused. I’m not sure but I’m trying”, Great! So I’m taking action despite of not being clear so I’m definitely going to get better.

Not how we ideally think when anxious. But when the trigger is approached with questions, I feel like it becomes more logical than emotional. And it starts feeling like finding the missing piece of the puzzle.

These wave of thoughts might feel like you are falling down from very high but that’s what it takes to fly higher and stronger!

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