Finding my Daddy · EpicYourLife

Finding my Daddy

I've been thinking about sharing this for quite awhile but with the holidays and some craziness in my own life I haven't had the time to write this. I'll try to give a very condensed version bc there's a lot of things involved in this.

It's been about 4 weeks or so now since this happened. One evening I was agonizing over a decision I was facing regarding a young man in my life that I've been talking with for quite some time now. And btw we are still engaging with each other. (:

I was getting ready to go to bed and I was sitting on the couch yet when I just suddenly started praying out loud which honestly was something I never did. That evening within a 90 minute space of time my Daddy made himself very visible to me. I have never actually had a good relationship with either of the men that I called dad and I have over the last year prayed about having someone to be in my life that I could actually experience a good dad relationship with but I figured it'd never happen since both of my dads are gone from this life.

But that evening I met my Daddy and I experienced what a true loving daddy relationship is like. At one point even though there was no one physically in the room with me I physically felt like I was lifted up to sit on my daddy's lap where he wrapped his arms around me. I cried as I finally experienced the love, safety and security in his arms that I had always longed for. Around this same time I was flooded with a warm feeling that spread over my whole body. It was a truly beautiful and special thing that happened. Even now writing this there's tears because I'm remembering again of every special moment of that evening.

The next morning morning I woke up from the soundest sleep I've ever experienced. As I was moving to get up I suddenly realized that I didn't have the pain that I normally had upon waking up.

Let me explain a bit about the normal pain levels I had everyday. Even sleep didn't alleviate much of my pain. I've had chronic widespread pain for as long as I can remember even as a 7 year old I realized that my body hurt a lot more than my other friends did. Now I know that it's a result of the trauma my body had experienced even by that young age. In my upper 20's I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and told that I really needed a hip replacement but my Dr recommended to handle it with my own hip as long as possible since a hip replacement needs replaced so often.

As far as I was dealing with 4 weeks ago I had finally been forced to start taking narcotics for my pain. I had neck surgery earlier this year and so I was dealing with neck pain, severe low back and tailbone pain and ongoing arthritis pain even to the point that I had to use a walker and could hardly bend over enough to tie my shoes. I basically became isolated at home because I didn't have the energy or strength to do anything but my Dr appointments every week.

Back to that morning, as I started moving around I realized that I didn't have neck or low back pain. It was GONE! That's when I realized that my daddy had not only healed so much emotional pain he had also physically healed me! PRAISE THE LORD!!!

Today I am already getting back into more of the life I always wanted. I still have to be careful about not overdoing stuff because my body has needed time to get stronger. At first when I realized that I could walk faster I told my PT that I needed to try and remember that my lungs can't get enough breath in for faster walking but now I'm definitely better my lungs seems to be getting better and I don't get short of breath because I'm walking faster.

I'm now weaning off the narcotics and I actually realized tonight that I hadn't even taken any OTC this morning and while I'm really sore I'm not in major pain.

When I spoke with my mental health med prescriber we decided that I could try weaning off one of my MH meds. It's so exciting to see the little steps that get better I'm seeing some every day.

Truly our Father wants to give us good gifts and I want to give him all the praise, glory and honor for all these things that I've shared. Truly God is good all the time! I've learned in the hard times he was always there and now I know about the good things that he gives to his children.

Thank you for reading this very long post and I want to encourage each one that our Daddy is always waiting for and with us even when we don't feel him.

I pray that each one of us will go into the new year with the goals that our Daddy has given us. Blessings to each and every one of you!

4 comments