This is a fantastic article you guys about Bill, Wilson, and others in early AA using psychedelics, both as a means of assisting recovery and as a means of inducing spiritual experience. It’s one of the best written article articles I’ve found in my 12 year sober. https://www.psychedelicsinrecovery.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/04/Distilled-Spirits-excerpt.pdf Blessings everybody. May we all be happy. May we all be free. May we all be well! ❤️🫶🙏☀️ One love

Hello friends. I am blessed with a great many talents, and I am wrecked by a lot of challenges. This is because I have autism spectrum disorder. I suppose I have to share the usual disclaimer to not do drugs, and that this is something that should encourage harm reduction. With that out of the way, I'm happy to share with you all my journey with mind-altering substances and kind of see where this lands, but as you all have seen my posts by now, I rarely meander into anything not thought out. I was born in 1978, when there was a relatively limited understanding of autism that wasn't outwardly profound, like severe cognitive impairments and with that, social challenges. My parents knew that with every talent I had came an unfortunate social or physical challenge, but they wouldn't allow me to give into a mentality of feeling a form of victimhood. I knew I was kind of odd but they protected me, I learned how to act around friends, and my masking grew. Along came college, where I would learn a lot about wonderful mild serotonin agonists (we call it beer), but I also learned by trial, error and instinct that something was just simply not quite typical about me. I was jumpy to say the least. I got startled easily. I would rock back and forth when things got loud. I'd have meltdowns, I was prone to slapping my head, but here in college? Clean slate fam. Along came a close friend who introduced me to LSD at age 22, my last year of college. My roommates, friends and everyone who saw me at this party that night said I simply acted like a completely different person, and unlike the memory-altering issues with alcohol, I remember this evening perfectly. This was 25 years ago. I didn't pick it up again until 2013, dosing LSD with friends at Burning Man. I got way into it and realized it cleared up this "pervasive anxiety" I seemed to have not knowing it was autism. Did it intermittently for several years and then microdosed 19 months from 2018-2019, or about 165 times, every Monday and Thursday at 8:00 AM. Seemed to clear up ASD symptoms quite a bit and I'd love to get back into it.

Hey @Jonas Rosen, let’s help out our sister get some engagement in this community. I am currently microdosing Amanita Muscaria as i have found it to be my Ancestral heritage to work with these teachers. Although i have never had a high dose of Amanita, I want to try going in soon. Has anyone else in this community tried Amanita?

Psychedelics are going to be the thing that catapult you into more stability, comfort & contentment. They teach you how to cope with the stress of life in a very productive way. Instead of allowing your life to flash before you because you are trapped in a bunch of traumatic responses. I'm not saying that everybody needs to journey deep on a large amount of a psychedelic medicine, but I do believe that many people could benefit from a microdosing journey. You need to be open to the change that it bring & not set too many high expectations. The reality is that it's not realistic to be happy all the time & they are not going to make you just feel happy all the time & fix your life so nothing bad ever happens but they open your mind up & help you understand how to deal with it when it gets rough. Life ebs & flows. You're going to have good days & you're going to have bad days. You're going have good periods in your life & you're gonna have bad periods in your life, that is never going to end. It's the way you're dealing with it, coping with it & the mindset that you have that matters. It's about learning how to surrender to it & this is exactly what the medicine teaches you. Life does & it will continue to throw rocks at you from every single direction. It is a choice to remain a victim in those moments instead of learning how to regulate yourself & learning how to develop resilience. I know that for me personally, it was almost impossible for me to learn all of this before I started working with psychedelics because I was so trapped within my patterns. Patterns that I had been repeating over & over again my whole life & I thought that I would never be able to move past it. It is so hard to get out of victimhood once you are trapped in it but trust me when I say that it's possible. Once I started surrendering to the medicine my life completely changed. It helped me to break away from my old thoughts & habits & I started to create new ones that were much more involved. I started to lose interest in all of the patterns that were causing me harm & I started to be interested in new habits that actually benefited my life. From here is where my whole life change, my attitude & my beliefs changed.

You are just full of sickness that has been trapped inside your body, that has been accumulating for years & years & years. This is what's causing you to have “mental health problems”. It's not just because your brain is so messed up that you can't be fixed or that you just came into the world that way. I'm willing to bet this something very bad happened to you at one point & it really messed you up & now you are having a reaction to it. In my personal opinion, it is probably very justified. God only knows what you've been through & I am so deeply sorry that you had to go through all of that but I promise you that you're not broken. You're not mentally ill & you're not unfixable. Yes, neurobiology plays a huge role. There are some conditions that we do come into the world with like autism, for example. This doesn't necessarily mean that something is wrong with you. The wiring of your brain is just different & trauma also plays a giant role in how we turn out. People who are neurodivergent tend to have a more extreme reaction to traumatic events, usually a much more extreme reaction than people who are neurotypical. So if you have something like autism or ADHD or both & then you throw a traumatic childhood on top of that, no wonder you're having the reaction that you do. No wonder you're struggling so much. You are not broken & there's nothing wrong with your brain. Your brain is just reacting to traumatic events on top of its own neurobiology. This nonsense that you're just broken & that something is wrong with you is a lie that is fed to you by the mental health system. They profit from keeping you in cycles of confusion & from keeping you from understanding the true nature of your soul. For over 12 years, I have been working with psychedelic medicine to treat my mental health after years & years of traumatic events. That have just layered on top of one another. At one point I thought I was broken too. I thought that I would never be able to cure myself because I was completely & utterly brainwashed by the mental health system. Jumping from medication to medication that just did not work for me & jumping from therapist to therapist that didn't even know what they were doing. I'm not saying that every therapist & psychiatrist is brain dead, has bad intentions or is trying to harm you. They do what they do from a place of wanting to help but even people who have gone to school for psychology are completely clueless on how to treat mental health.