My Journey | My Healing | My Mission
Hello friends. I am blessed with a great many talents, and I am wrecked by a lot of challenges. This is because I have autism spectrum disorder. I suppose I have to share the usual disclaimer to not do drugs, and that this is something that should encourage harm reduction. With that out of the way, I'm happy to share with you all my journey with mind-altering substances and kind of see where this lands, but as you all have seen my posts by now, I rarely meander into anything not thought out. I was born in 1978, when there was a relatively limited understanding of autism that wasn't outwardly profound, like severe cognitive impairments and with that, social challenges. My parents knew that with every talent I had came an unfortunate social or physical challenge, but they wouldn't allow me to give into a mentality of feeling a form of victimhood. I knew I was kind of odd but they protected me, I learned how to act around friends, and my masking grew. Along came college, where I would learn a lot about wonderful mild serotonin agonists (we call it beer), but I also learned by trial, error and instinct that something was just simply not quite typical about me. I was jumpy to say the least. I got startled easily. I would rock back and forth when things got loud. I'd have meltdowns, I was prone to slapping my head, but here in college? Clean slate fam. Along came a close friend who introduced me to LSD at age 22, my last year of college. My roommates, friends and everyone who saw me at this party that night said I simply acted like a completely different person, and unlike the memory-altering issues with alcohol, I remember this evening perfectly. This was 25 years ago. I didn't pick it up again until 2013, dosing LSD with friends at Burning Man. I got way into it and realized it cleared up this "pervasive anxiety" I seemed to have not knowing it was autism. Did it intermittently for several years and then microdosed 19 months from 2018-2019, or about 165 times, every Monday and Thursday at 8:00 AM. Seemed to clear up ASD symptoms quite a bit and I'd love to get back into it.