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I'd like to share some words about a personal practice that allows me to quickly drop into a relaxed state of pure loving awareness.

I discovered it by accident as a teenager by the strong urge to sit still and simply be "transparent". I would do this every chance I had between classes, meals, work or upon waking up or sleeping. I must have done it 6x-8x a day, even if just for 5 minutes.

It was such a beautiful relief for me at that time that I wished I could do it all day. So on my 22nd birthday, I sat on top of a mountain above my hometown and water fasted with 1 gallon of water for 4 days. It was so powerful that I didn't want to come down. If I didn't have work or school obligations, I would have been up there for another week.

I didn't share this with anyone because no one around me spoke about these types of experiences or longings. I simply followed my intuition and was rewarded with peace. It was so sacred to me that I kept it to myself, in a way to protect it. I had fear that someone would say it was fake and that it was all in my head, and I had no way to prove to anyone about my experience.

I searched for mentors, elders and guides. But I had only found books written by our ancestors from many cultures and traditions. So I knew I wasn't alone. But when I sought help from living people, the pay wall was too high for me to afford as a poor art student. And the Internet was still very young, there was no Google yet. So I kept to myself and books.

It was only until recent that I found a mentor who taught me that what I was practicing is a form of meditation and have since learned to cultivate it with daily practice. He calls it the "Practice of Yes". Anything that comes to our awareness, be it in the form of thoughts, emotions or physical sensations... everything is accepted without judgement, without resistance. A simple "Yes" to everything in our field awareness, our circumstances, our relationships. There is no seeking to change anything outside of, or within, "what is" here and now.

I call it "Being Transparent", because the "I" that is my self dissolves into "All" that is. There is no separation between the outer and the inner. There is no becoming or attainment, nothing to do other than be.

The depth of this field of awareness varies from moment to moment and by relaxing deeper into it, without effort, without expectation or desire, and what used to surprise me as a Peak Awareness, settles beyond words and dissolves me into a profound sense of home and safety in this body while simultaneously recognizing my reflection as the Ultimate Reality of Being. Truly Awake. So much so, that when I'm back to this so-called "normal" physical localized awareness, I am aware that this life I am living is the Dream, and who I really am is the Dreamer.

This sounds intense, and it can be, but it's also very relaxing. The most natural thing. Love. Peace. Pure and simple. Capable of holding all manifested potential, including all perceivable contrast. Our pain then is a gateway for our loving expansion. Our pleasure is a gateway for our loving expansion. Our life is a gateway for our loving expansion. We can hold it all with Love. That is our nature and what we are.

This body and mind can rest because I am home in the Awareness that I am a Beam of Eternal Consciousness, of not just this life, but of everyone and everything, including the great mystery and dreaded vacuum of nothingness. I am/we are bliss, and my entire being cannot resist but to smile, to empathize and see my Self in everyone and everything.

I learned that traumas in our bodies can transform profoundly in community, to be witnessed mutually and be seen. This is why I joined this community. I want to find others to connect with in this way of being.

This is just a small fragment of my experience and would like to find ways to relate and share more.

I appreciate you all for being here with integrity, intention and love.

With much love and gratitude,

- Paulo

P.S. - I'm curious and adding this Poll: "Can you relate? Do you have similar experiences to this?"

P.P.S. - The attached painting is Acrylic on Canvas and I painted it trying to capture some of that feeling of dissolving into transparency.

Yes! :)

Um... you lost me there, buddy :\

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