On the theme of essence… I’m realizing more and more that this lifetime, for me, is about breaking generational curses. Very on-brand for my whole “I transmute lineage and turn it into wisdom” arc. Ancestral patterns truly hate to see me coming.
Lately, I’ve been feeling especially protective of my younger siblings. When I hear echoes of how I was treated, something ancient wakes up in me. There’s a part of me that can make peace with my own past — my parents were human, they were learning, they didn’t have the tools yet.
But watching the same patterns reach for a younger child? That’s different. That doesn’t just hurt — it clarifies.
I realize now: I didn’t just survive that battlefield. I walked it. I burned in it. I healed in it. And I came back — not as the wounded soldier, but as the exalted warrior.
I’ve also made a quiet, honest peace with something else: my family will likely never be the family I wished for. They may never fully see me, accept me, or meet me where I am. And long ago I stopped setting myself on fire to stay warm in a place that never was.
I walked away from that fire — not in bitterness, but in self-respect.
And in doing that, I became something new.
I feel deeply honored that I get to be a place of safety for my younger siblings. A sanctuary. A nervous-system exhale. A place where they can be seen, believed, protected, and reminded of who they are.
Some of us aren’t born into families to belong.
Some of us are born into families to end things.
And once you’ve done your healing, you don’t return to the battleground to fight the same war.
You return with your spine straight. Your eyes open. Your essence intact.
With all my love 💙🦋