Challenge with going into the unknown

With the new commitment in 2026 I’ve quit all my vices: smoking, pmo, unhealthy eating, procrastination. These were the things that usually drained my energy, but I also used it to regulated my “stress”.

Now 8 days in, I’m living insanely productively and mindfully. However, there are now moments that pop up where I’m feeling very intense pressure.

It either feels like I’m burning out, but maybe that’s just my mind judging these sensations as wrong.. or it feels very euphoric and I feel intense love.

I’m trying to balance my masculine with feminine, and the fire in my life with water practices in order to integrate what I’m feeling, without going into chaos (sluggish procrastination) , but also not going into too much fire, working too much on things that aren’t aligned and burning out there..

Yesterday there was insanely much tasks that I had to do, I got up very early (with little sleep) - cold shower - worked on the tasks before my day job and managed to clear the day. But the day was very fire heavy, it was a lot of pushing.. So I tried to balance it out yesterday evening with meditation, naps, warm bath and a good night rest.

Still in the morning I woke up quite unconscious, my thoughts were going all over the place.. I still managed to go for a cold shower - meditation (was quite difficult) - yoga - long walk outside - mini nap before work (just stacked a lot of healing practices) .. but still there are moments where I’m feeling very intense pain.

So getting to my question:

I feel like both masculine action and feminine feeling solves the stress in those stressful moments, how do I recognise which one I need?

(Edit) - for example now, I’m looking at my work, I feel some intense sensations, the urge leans to not doing it now.. but I also can’t just keep healing right..