Day 1 : I’M FINALLY LOOKING OUT FOR JUST ME !!!! Day 2: Stop acting like it doesn’t bother me because it does , I don’t want to give up but I have the following emotions to deal with ; LOVE , JOY , PEACE , TRUST , FRUSTRATION , LONELINESS !!!! Day 3: The Letter Nobody is supposed to read I can’t stop thinking about how out of all the relationships I’ve had, no one could touch my heart the way you did. We’ve known each other almost our entire lives, and when we finally decided to take that step towards making a rear relationship out of our friendship, it was amazing. The laughter, the tears, the great times and a few bad times, but when we finally had to say goodbye to each other because he realize we had grown apart to some degree and both realizing it was for the best, it still hurts to this day. Day 4 : remembering who I was, I really did trust women thinking all was great in a relationship relationships until you find out they were just putting up a front. A couple of them pulled complete surprises on me. Day 5: what changed? As soon as she reached out to me and asked me to visit, I realized that person was the one I needed. That someone that I knew all along was special. That was different , that all of the sudden her reaching out made me realize and think and also had me wondering is this a sign. Day 6 : after my visit, it happened instantly. I lost my previous frustration and pain along with distrust, and knew after we talked it was actually going to happen. She’s seven years older than me and I’ve always been crazy about her but never thought it would ever go there. Day 7: What survived? I was so happy to know that I had hope there are opportunities for rear relationship relationships. My frustration was gone, my creativity. And my desire to write and produce was back. My heart survived, so I somehow didn’t give up completely and now my faith is now renewed, and I can be happy again. I always hit my feelings and just pretended. I just need to not dwell on it at all. So my patience also survived because I barely had it.