Rainy day here so working in the office on the mountain of paperwork, billing and estimates that have been quite neglected with the intensity of the war season. This software integration we will begin to work on here shortly I think will help with it all. How I'm doing it now was for a different version of me and my company, and is not optimal nor efficient. Enjoyed seeing everyone on the call and appreciate the few minutes to rant on the employee stuff. It's so damn challenging to create and keep a team. And this who mess with this recent employee has gotten to me. It really sucks when you are out to do the right thing by someone and create opportunity only to have them burn you. I know everything happens for a reason, but sitting here reflecting on it all just has me a little bummed out by it all. Not only was he really challenging to the harmony of my company (and myself) but the outright disrespect he showed towards Diana and myself was awful. A high chair tyrant for sure. And to lose a long time client now over it stings a bit. However, I know I don't need clients like this. To have produced a young man that carries himself in this manner, without respect and any sort of honor does not align with my personal values. It's all sorts of just plain messed up. And I'm feeling very tired. No doubt the heavy burden of so many months of straight effort and no real down time. This has consistently been a war season unlike any other and I'm very much looking forward to this winter's break.

Lover follows Sovereign in the Hero's Journey cycle. It works that way because we all need to regroup and reintegrate from the last push which involves going public and claiming purpose which is always stressful if you're doing it right. Our Lover house is making and maintaining vitality in our lives. Lover is our "relationship house" and includes nurturing belonging and resiliency. Relationships function in three categories: Self, Others and the World. We need belonging and vitality in each. Relationship with Self involves things like self-care, hobbies and meditation. Relationship with Others involves real conversations and connections with your tribe. Relationship with the world can be getting into nature, reading and spiritual practice. In all of these relationships that we have, belonging is key and for many people setting clear boundaries creates the container for belonging. Clarity is kindness. Anger can be a healthy emotion. Vulnerability is strength, weakness is not. Resiliency is also central to our Lover house and includes the three categories: Regulation Purification Reintegration There is a good workshop on this in the classroom here so check it out! As always, if you want to move your life forward this month set a non-negotiable daily practice in one of the topics above. Make it as small as needed so you'll do it. Hold your boundaries with yourself because it creates trust and belonging with others, the world and yourself. Also set one larger goal for the month so when you look back at the end of October your life has moved forward up the mountain! Share these daily and monthly goals on this post for clarity, support and accountability. Happy Hunting, Tribe

Did a writing block - mostly editing actually, and formatting on a substack post. Something is a little off. Trying to avoid perfectionism, and this one makes me feel all exposed and stuff. Will sleep on it - usually does the trick. A little day job catching up, delivery to the pizza guy, dropped off spent substrate to the permaculture farm, haircut. Another bit of temptation. Sober Saturday, streak intact.

Got the scratchy bit smoothed out & posted. I'll probably find faults if I look back, but it was time. More than food - by Emile - Wilder Origins. The last section is where I'm at for a marketing blurb, which was the challenge / suggestion from Philip at the beginning of the month. Please feel free to let me know what works & what doesn't, I suspect this is not the last iteration. Had a fairly good rest-day, did tie off a loose end from yesterday & some prepping for the week to come. See y'all tomorrow!

Spent a great day with @Tanya Folsom and @Stacey B out at Apex today. Shared some kinship and some books. Got my workout in and will be posting about it tomorrow for my Sovereign goal. Will be rebooting the writing ritual on Monday.