Overwhelmed Mama that wants to do better!
Good morning beautiful community! I am really STRUGGLING as a parent. I am either too permissive or exploding. I need help! I have two neurodivergent kiddos, both girls. My 7 year old has ADHD and my 5 year old has autism (very verbal and functioning but so emotional and explosive, low frustration tolerance). I just do not know how to give consequences that feel fair, logical, consistent but also show grace, mercy, and be loving and build my kids up without shaming them and creating more generational trauma. Most of my parenting challenges come from my youngest, but this morning it was my oldest (so expect another post from me in the future). This morning my oldest asked if she could have Nutella and was told no. She went into the kitchen and started getting it all out on her own. Thankfully I heard her and was able to go intervene but felt so disrespected by her direct defiance. The way she goes about things just makes it seem like she feels so entitled and ungrateful sometimes.. she will do things she has been told not to do, or do things without asking (and I hate having those thoughts about her!!). After that, she was getting ready to get taken to an egg hunt so I asked her to go grab two grocery bags from the garage and the face she made was like so disgusted and annoyed that I would ask her to do that. I immediately snapped and was like, "You know what, maybe you don't even need to go today, what is up with you?!" (shaming and empty threat because she couldn't stay with me...). Lord, and community, please help me because I feel like a failure as a parent daily, like I'm just not cut out for this... as someone trying to heal myself from my own turbulent childhood I just feel like I can't do it right...