here's something my soul wrote back in april this year no matter what your dark ego screams at you, you are never truly alone even though it may feel like it... there is always a hand ready to grab hold of you and help to pull you from the darkness and back into light, YOUR own amazing beautiful light which the world is in need of right now, so please, please, please reach out because you will be surprised by the abundance of love and support that is available and waiting 🙏🏻 i know first hand the torture those dark thoughts bring and how difficult it is to ask for help (i still struggle now to ask for help) but i promise you that things will get better and i'm here, in my light, after years of suffering in silence in such deep depths of darkness, for fear of being a burden, sharing my story of how it's possible to live a life full of love, joy and happiness again darkness isn't the end - it's where your light goes to shine its brightest ever, making you the strongest you've ever been you ain't broken either and are never given more than you can handle so just know you can and will get through this, okay? 💞 community is crucial - it offers a safe haven full of love and support, without any judgement or pressure whatsoever, you're never alone in this world sending lots of love to everyone involved because suicide just doesn't impact the individual, it leaves a lasting imprint for family, friends and everyone else that knew and cared for the person 🌹

okay so i think i may have been experiencing this recently and it's been a very wild rollercoaster of a dark and deep but beautiful (afterwards!) ride, uurgh! energies seem to be shifting like no other collectively so if you're feeling out of whack then just know you ain't alone! ride the wave...or storm...or tsunami in a storm? haha and you'll come through it feeling lighter and more at home, but it ain't just an overnight thing, oh nooo lol get comfortable with being uncomfortable 😉

I was walking my dog Remi and an interesting thing happened. There is a sweet old woman who walks around the block with a wheeled cart she uses to help her walk. We speak often. She just loves my dog Remi. Remi is high energy and rambunctious, but she is very gentle with the woman because she senses her vulnerability. We stopped to chat under the shade of a tree. She gave Remi her pets, and we chatted. A 20 something man was skateboarding down the sidewalk from behind her, and stopped because we were in the way. As he walked by, he shouldered the elderly lady, rudely saying "EXCUSE YOU!!" I quickly threw out my arm and caught her, otherwise she would have fallen. In that instant Remi let out a sound. It was part, bark, part growl, part roar. She launched herself 3 feet in the air the length of her leash. She hit his leg and bit his other knocking him down. She growled and shook wildly on her leg hold, ripping his jeans. He crawled out if range, swore, then ran a few yards before speeding off on his skateboard. Remi then ran over,stood on her hind legs, put her front paws on the womans cart and began frantically licking her hand. That young man learned several lessons. I learned that although she is my girl, Remi will fiercely defend her friends.

plodding along in life, doing the same thing on repeat, day in day out... nothing excites you you rarely have fun - you've neglected your inner child who's wanting nothing more than to engage in adventures full of love and joy, being free to express themselves, soaking up the beauty of life you're constantly consumed in a screen, whether it be your phone, tv, laptop, video games etc you reach for takeout or get food delivered due to exhaustion or not enough 'time', being too 'busy', or simply lacking the skills to cook a decent meal (i'm not the best cook ha!) you 'chase' the weekend whilst wishing away the majority of the week which can be just as fulfilling - it's about finding the joy in each day 😉 the list could go on but if you're honest with yourself, are you actually surviving when you thought you were living? truly living is when you're your authentic self, following your heart, and living out your soul's purpose - what is it that gives you that fire in your belly and sparks your soul? what's one thing you've always wanted to do and is constantly on your mind? what's your dream life look like? we've lost what it means to be human and free... instead, we're following the crowd, the next 'trend', shrinking ourselves to 'fit in', working for someone else's dream and lining their own pockets, wasting our life away feeling unfulfilled because we're living up to society's expectations which aren't healthy one bit! living is FREEDOM and AUTHENICITY which has been stripped from us from a young age! it's time to REMEMBER just who the f*** you are and shine that beautiful light of yours, spreading nothing but love and kindness 💞 so, who are YOU? away from the all the toxic BS that was never yours to carry...who are you underneath those layers?

Let’s get real some of your “blocks” aren’t mindset. They’re your inner child not feeling safe being seen. You can say the affirmations. You can visualize the aligned life. You can script the 10k months, the soulmate, the freedom... But if a part of you still believes: 1. “Success = pressure” 2. “Love = abandonment” 3. “Rest = danger” You’ll manifest… then sabotage. Call it in… then push it away. Healing your inner child makes your manifestations stick because you’re not just calling things in you’re actually able to hold them. What’s one belief you’re realizing isn’t “yours” but your inner child’s?