I hope everyone has a good day. I know this season can be tough for some. If you aren’t feeling merry, just know it’s okay to feel however you do. Take deep breaths and just 🐝

I recently just started posting content related to my spiritual journey. Just super laid back and chill videos, nothing too extravagant. If anyone feels called to watch and support that’d be awesome! I hope everyone is having a good day <3 remember, just 🐝 https://youtu.be/i5EK75Sa-y4?si=OdcAU8XdNDZNoGxa

I think we all know hell is not a lake of fire in which we will be tortured for all eternity after death if we aren't good little monkeys. I am wondering if anyone has any useful apologetics for defending Jesus and his supposed depictions of such a place as misinterpreted or misconstrued. For example he talks about gehenna which was a place where child sacrifice/ burning took place. He also talks about a ravine of fire etc. I think fire = purification, as the Jewish people had no idea of hell and fire was purification/ God's cleansing - the burning bush for example. So when Jesus talks about fire, that is where it takes me. Purification, burning away of what is not us, hardening steal etc. I think the church added this idea of punishment for eternity to take power over the people. But I don't know the history specifically. Any references to Gnostic bibles or anything else to add would be awesome! Just trying to open a discussion my fellow monkeys :)

When I was a child, I believe around 10 ish give or take a lil, I made a journal. I had what I would consider a rough childhood is ways. I say that because I felt deeply motivated to support myself in that environment. As an adult now, I have been trying to find healing or just some presence and freedom from maybe mental or emotional captivity. I see that the pages I wrote were so soaked in creativity, color, and light. I woke up with “the power of now” playing on audible. I started making little present choices and found myself grabbing my old journal and passing through the pages. I’ve heard this idea of “reparenting” mentioned as a way of tending to the child in you that was abandoned or hurt. When I read my journal, I realized that as a child I was lending love and nurturing to myself that is truly inspiring to me now. Here are a few pages I want to share. The last page (black and white) is one that I made as an adult.

I am Starlight. I haven’t figured out how to speak without using “I” statements yet, but background/introductions are important. This might be choppy and awkward. I will try to keep it short :p I have been searching (a very long time it feels) for others that understand what is happening. My ego legitimately started to make me feel insane. Everyone in my family labeled me with various mental illnesses, as well. So, I have gotten NO true spiritual guidance. Then (growing up Catholic) you have everyone around you telling you God is outside of you, in the sky, and only reachable through a priest :’) It never resonated with me and repulsed me from the idea of God. Although, I remember vividly what is before this existence. I have memories of before I was born. So, it was chaos for many years. Misdirection from unconscious human beings. What is occurring with me, and from what I believe Rey is describing online, is not taken well by some people. However, I carried on with a secret knowing. Finding Rey’s channel on YT has solidified to my awareness that I am not crazy. I just haven’t found the right beings to be around. Thank you all for being here and I look forward to being a part of this group. Sending you all much love and peace <3