@Erhard H. You still haven't addressed the point of no return. I can see what you're saying, though I think you're being a little bit contrarian for contrarian sake, please justify your claim that we can enter a point of no retueb or of eternal punishment, as you claimed. Your assertion that humans are apart from God is true on one plane but in ultimate reality there is nothing but God. How could there be? So what part of God exactly is going to hell for eternal punishment? Instead it is much more rational to see that all aspects of creation will continue to toil (in hell or somewhere below heaven at least) until they realize that everything including them is God, until they wake up to realize that there is no evil, no other, no human, no animal, no realms, no death, no suffering no nothing. But God. To them wake up to our true reality that it was all pretend:)

@Erhard H. Because if I spend this lifetime murdering people then I will spend the next 1000 lifetimes being murdered. It's quite simple. If all matter in the universe is "brought to life by God" then all matters true nature is God, there is nothing, the material works is an illusion like you said. So all matter must return to whence it came. All life must return. All illusion must fall away to reveal the true nature of everything as God. So all beings must endure suffering the karmic cycle of consequence, where justice is served by living the repurcussions of your own actions, until you wake up to your nature, until you enter into one with God again and become an angel like you said. Tell me, where is the justice in God creating something for the sole purpose of rotting in hell for eternity? Rather he creates us to grow into full knowledge and integration of him. That we all must suffer and be asleep to eventually wake up and return to him. The model of eternal damnation is nothing but control tactics and spiritual fear mongering. I implore you to take a look at your beliefs as they are limiting your spiritual freedom. To suggest the only reason to walk the spiritual path is because of some possibility of eternal punishment is such a low level though, it does not align with the rest of your argument of creation and oneness and angelic presence. Your arguments contradict one another entirely.

I only make progress when I am lucky and I just have to wait around for a break. All my dreams are unrealistic and I am doomed to fall short. Those are my negative beliefs that is ee manifest in my life when I go into spiritual luls and enter back into sleep. When I am awake I see the orientation change, but that's the answer to your question

@Anita Kozlowski I can and I am😁

@David Newman well first I think it's not so black and white. If entering back into the habit will not lead to freedom, but resistance and force will lead to pendulum swinging in opposite direction what I to do? I cannot resist and I can not let go. I think the answer is awareness which involves partaking and witnessing the results. But I would agree if I totally recognize it does not serve me, I wouldnt go back to it. But clearly some part of me still thinks I am getting something good from it. Why is it the most important thing in my life? Woukd you disagree the most important thing a heroin addict can do is stop using heroin? As long as and especially if it is through spiritual methods of clearing up karma? I have been watching porn for over a decade straight. It is the single most sinful thing do and the loss of my sexual energy directly contributes to my lack of spiritual growth hitherto. I am talking past tense and my identity is shifting to becoming free of all that but I am not speaking about my identity I am speaking about what has occured in the past