I haven’t been happy for one minute in my entire life. I push everyone away because they don’t deserve to be miserable like me. I am such an abortion. It’s insane how not a day goes by when I wish I hadn’t been born. All my teachers and bullies and antagonizers were right all along. I was never a good person. I totally overestimated my ability to believe the BS that I could be worth a damn in this beautiful world. Everyone has had enough of my nonsense, including myself. Happy new year.

I started 2026 with no goals or anything, no new years resolutions. I just stayed in my room gaming. Tomorrow I have school again and I need to lock in again. But I don't know what to work on, how to make a plan, find goals, create a routine etc. Im a bit lost right now. and my birthday is in18 days and I will turn 16 years old.