It just doesn’t feel like it You don’t trust yourself and your soul It’s a constant feeling of lack and I’m not enough How do you know what is the correct amount of output versus resting Healing community versus taking some for yourself? Giving everything away all the time and constantly drained Or is that an excuse you tell yourself but you actually could do more like go workout today or optimize your nutrition How do you know? Meditation is the only way I know how to tune into my soul or perhaps prayer Do you meditate?

-launch towards your dream life -universe will give us what we want -IF we can sustain about 95% of our best effort

i think energetically that's what i'm doing - tho i'm prone to say crazy/grandiose things lol i expand then have to contract; address the needs of the group get ready for another huge expansion what is the goal for your comm? what would 1000 members feel like? if 20% are active then 200 active ppl posting and commenting? that would be nuts what would they want to talk about? what is their goal? is it business or just to have a fun friendly place to hangout? both?

Why do we want things that aren’t good for us? Why do we hold on to illusions when we are too afraid to admit the truth ?

Conviction is a fire inside you that ROARS with power. It is feeling like you are in 100% alignment with your destiny. This isn't just clarity....this is SUPERCHARGED emotion. Why do we struggle? Why do we give up? You haven't been in the habit of WINNING. It's called the "loser's limp". It's just a program bro. SHATTER THAT BITCH. My strategy is changing....I'm only gonna show u my masculine about 20% of the time. But when I do....I'm full force. It's the tip of a blade...The point of a spear. EVERY FUCKING MISERABLE MOMENT OF MY LIFE. EVERY SINGLE FAILURE. ALL THE DREAMS IN MY HEART DYING TO COME TRUE. It's all of it man. Life isn't about false positivity. Pretending to be happy all the time. Cuz that's a fuckin lie man. It's delusional. We are light and shadows. Just go out in rush hour traffic on a monday... Light and love bro. Fuck my life. It's not about wanting something with your full intensity and focus. That's not enough. These words are not enough to CONVEY TO YOU why I care so much. It's every single emotion I've ever felt in my life. Unified and condensed into one singular TIP. Just the tip. lol The blade of perfection is an exacting standard. I guess you know it's like a requirement I set on myself. I will not accept anything less than perfection. I am not a perfect human being. But the striving....feels worthy to me. The SHEER OUTPUT when I don't feel like it. I get tired too man. Just as much as you do. But I am a little bit better at SUFFERING. Yea it hurts and you feel like shit and would want nothing more than to go home; take a nap; curl up in a ball; and decompress. But your dreams are calling you.... It's 50% haunting me.... 50% propelling me forward.... With every fiber of my entire being_ I WILL PERSEVERE.