I mean tbh this is like a journal or diary lol But I feel inspired to talk about it Maybe someone else out there will also feel inspired to talk about their self love journey Sounds cliche … #selflovejourney But my entire life has been a healing journey… I can’t even say it’s anyone else’s fault except my own Maybe it really is my karma for past lives Maybe I’ve treated ppl terribly and never realized it…. I don’t actually know But now my gums are perfectly clean and healing I’m grateful that the universe is looking out for me and taking care of me Some things are genetic and we have no control over Sometimes you do all the right things and you still feel screwed over or dealt a poor hand in life All you can do it make the best of it I’m quickly approaching 50 followers in less than a week… I have always been able to pull in numbers in my life Numbers and sales It responds to your active growth energy Anyway I bought a hydro pick water flosser and oral b electric toothbrush for my self love hygiene care lol And some vegan protein I’m pretty healthy and I’m fortunate for my good health but as a vegan I have to stay on top Of my protein and minerals It’s not that hard to do that mostly b vitamins and D I take a healthy multi vitamin I do like omegas tho maybe I’ll buy some more plant omeagas Hemp hearts have a lot of natural omegas Anyway hope you are doing well today 🧡

I went to the dentist and found out I had acute gingivitis - not irreversible damage but definitely a wake up call If I don’t practice better habits I could have long term affects and lose bone density You can get more bone back but it’s an expensive surgery and not something I ever wanna do Fortunately no cavities or decay I had neglected my oral health for the last like 10 years if I’m honest and just never went to the dentist I guess it was feelings of poverty and not wanting to pay for it then also just hating the dentist but I think it’s also my self love Or lack of it Not wanting to take care of myself Just another bill and annoyance to deal with - the annoyance of how expensive healthcare in America is This is also symbolic for me though professionally I’ve been pretty mean to people in my life and said many damaging things Cut friendships The spirit of this group has completely gone and it’s just me posting to myself I guess it’s my fault but in a way it’s also hard for me to have boundaries I feel like if I’m not careful with who I associate with it can have long term consequences on my momentum and success as well I paid for an advanced cleaning or gum therapy fortunately they were able to remove all the tartar and bacteria accumulated - it was like 10 years of work in 2.5 hours I am super grateful to the staff and team for taking care of me and doing a great job They then used a rinse and laser beam to kill off the the remaining bacteria I still have full function of the teeth and roots but I have to be extra careful and use a water pick water floss daily to make sure the gums stay healthy Then I have to get checkups every 3 months Hygiene has been a weak spot of mine And not just dentally but the way I treat people I will be nice for a phase and people like me then sometimes I turn into a monster and attack people …. And yet I want to be a coach and mentor people but I can struggle with keeping close friends without freaking out and judging them sometimes

“Dark Heart” Dark and Mysterious Wanna burn this world Down You only ever come around When I frown Gave you my heart Smashed it to a million Tiny Pieces And you wonder why The saints weep You can’t save me I need an angel or a Judge To tell me Every fucking thing That’s wrong with me Love from above One day they’ll tell all of their friends They used to know me And guess what I’ll say Your love was Phony Lux https://open.spotify.com/track/00k55HxLWMXRVWKOLzmrsG?si=aTMhL4B-RSCUmLQz9swBvA

To the DARK SIDE I’m crazy and say crazy shit for attention But it works Unfollow me then follow me again when I’m rich as shit Oh yeah I used to know him Dude is fucking delusional Half crazy But I can’t stop following …… Wtf ⁉️⁉️

Is it “LUX”?? Crazy ass rager dude on social media???? Divine feminine ??? Feminine embodiment??? You wanna take selfies half naked on IG???? Lol Oh my God I’m bored