Been failing at this for 4 days. I was clean for 10 before. But I want to accept that 10 is not very many. I know I need positive and optimistic accountability. But right now I feel like a fake. I feel the very strong pull of my addiction. I want to be better. What else do you all talk about when talking about accountability?

If you are addicted to something, something you KNOW is bad for you… yet you can’t stop? It means that you are at a place where you can’t trust yourself. Not yourself Not your brain Not your words Not your promises Not your SOUL. Your entirety is not to be trusted. Where do you think the guilt, shame, low energy, lack of self respect is coming from? Your addictions, the things that keep pulling you back, keeping you distracted, are like a parasitic entity whose entire goal is to have you indulge in it. Offering you fake stimulation and “pleasure”… in return, it wants a piece of you. My uncle once told me this about weed smokers, but this applies for all addictions. “Smoking weed chips away pieces from them.. little by little.. after some time.. they are just shells of who they were, and NOTHING like who they could have been”. Your phone addiction, scrolling, porn, gaming, junk food, shopping, backbiting, shit talking, procrastination, ALL OF IT. It TAKES away from you! Take it seriously, brother man! Before you know it, you might find yourself to be older and so much further behind that you ever imagined. I'm not one for scare tactics, but this must be taken seriously Take ownership of this journey daily. Check in, write to your brothers. Share what you have learned, share what's worked for you and what doesn't. Truly wish for each other what you wish for yourself, which is a free and more controlled way of life