This morning I received a reading and it confirmed all that I have in this human experience lately. I've been the head of household for the last 7 yrs. I have 3 children living at home and I am a caregiver for my mother 3 days per week. Saying it outloud makes me tired. 😅 I'm open to any feedback or perspective.

Hi guys So something is wrong with me and I dno what is it . Recently overwhelming darkness and anger towards gods has been coming up . I feel as though the other parts of my soul in the other universes are all giving me flashes of walking away from god . Meanwhile I’m here battling saying I am staying, I’m not leaving . I trust god and follow god, the light and love. I presume this is a spiritual attack of sorts . Sooo since about 2-3 days now my appetite has vanished . I’m having two small forkfulls of tuna pasta and my body is full and sick . It then refuses to eat . This happens with other food too …. I don’t have any medical illnesses that would cause this and my current medical stuff doesn’t do this . I have been exhausted yesterday and today sleeping constantly almost . I’m drinking huge amounts of water (flavoured still water) like 3L a day. Normally I drink 1.5-2. I feel hot all the time like im on fire and I don’t have a temperature (checked twice with thermometer, temp was 35.5 both times, but my skin and internally feels boiling). Thoughts would be greatly appreciated . Sending love light and flowers to all who need them in these transitional times of yin and yang ! 🌼🌷🌹🪻🌼🌻

I've been listening to Miley Cyrus for the last few days ever since she premiered "Every Girl You Ever Loved" (see my last post for more info on that connection https://www.skool.com/highvibetribe/welcome-to-the-other-side-of-the-looking-glass?p=19c9d031). She has quite a few songs on the "Something Beautiful" album that are very synchronistic to me right now (some of them are below). But tonight as I was doing my evening skin care routine, a Prince song came on that gave me some really good flashbacks and also link to my last post, "Welcome to the Other Side of the Looking Glass." It lit a fire in me to Party like its 1999!!!🔥💃 Tomorrow is 4th of July here in the states so I know there will be a lot of partying this weekend. Have some fun and remember what it was like in 1999 (if you were alive then) and party like your inner child would want you to party! Have fun, don't worry about who is watching and just enjoy yourself. HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY! What songs have you been listening to lately? Prince https://youtu.be/rblt2EtFfC4?si=mkrM61MyxzdKIH-q Miley https://youtu.be/ukTm71Id0uE?si=NY4jbq_9VrABVt8K Walk of Fame https://youtu.be/pWdQmaHgRnU?si=sPCUdHSGZSMO2707 End of the World https://youtu.be/wuTLrJt6sGw?si=xqMMhEbCcye8EDqa Reborn https://youtu.be/id3gaI4gD_8?si=0C8vD2x7Ag7nyWNs Something Beautiful https://youtu.be/y2nu8zpVBmY?si=3pDkdrIo96Hvhext

I used to overgive to those around me… My time, my energy, “helping people” etc I would rationalize it even when it meant abandoning myself Examples of this in my life including holding space for people at the expense of my own energy, overgiving with my time with tolerating people who were draining and even overgiving with what I share on Youtube and social media For years I believed I had to create daily content to GIVE myself to those that watched me At the core of this giving was a subconscious pattern I was failing to see… That pattern was the belief that “IF I overgive… people won't leave me” If I make daily videos on Youtube people will value me, if I abandon myself to hold space for people then they will appreciate me… etc It’s rooted in a wound of codependency Having a controlling step mom as a kid had conditioned me to associate connection and acceptance what what I could provide and DO for others Even if that meant abandoning ME Because as a kid… my feelings did not matter To survive I had to tune to an emotionally chaotic person and anticipate their every move To break this pattern I had to first become aware of the pattern I had to catch myself and question WHY am I doing this? What am I avoiding by staying in this pattern? And am I responsible for other peoples emotions? What if when I felt the urge to overgive… I caught myself and tapped into my body first? What is motivating this urge? Wanting approval? Validation? To be needed? Are there really no strings attached to this or do I want something from the person I am overgiving to? Here are 3 ways I broke the pattern 1. I let go of normalizing nonreciprocal relationships and created balance Relationships that weren't balanced where I would GIVE at the expense of myself… I had to take ownership of this patterns and instead of BLAMING them… I had to acknowledge that people treat me the way I treat me and the way I tolerate This meant having conscious conversations with people and sharing how I felt with the intentions of a new way of relating that felt good

My mom is not well and has been strugglijng with dementia and diabetes. Fortunately, my siblings and I have been supporting eachother. My brother, he's the oldest (66 yrs), lives and cares for both my parents in their 90s. I help out a few times a week to give my brother some relief. My mother has been in the hospital since Monday 6/16. I'm making every effort to spend as much time with my mom and to help my brother. My brother's dog died yesterday and was found under a cactus plant out in the yard. I feel for my brother as he's navigating the responsibilities of caring for our parents. Not sure why I'm posting this other than to express my current stress and challenge. Looking for ways to keeping it together since there's much to do. The picture is of my daughter and mom a couple days ago. The other, my brother and dog, Lola, which actually used to belong to my late sister who passed away 7 years ago. I'm meditating for strength and peace. Send me some good vibes. ❤️