@Evelyn Montes He knows your heart Evelyn, and that's the main thing. What I like to pray is this prayer: - a moment of honesty - a moment of acknowledgement of the pain - and a moment of surrender and letting go of it. This is what it looked like for me when I was getting some spiritual attacks from the work I was doing: "Father I’m sorry. I have been so caught up in this work, and I have made it real, I have made this an idol in my life, when I know what’s important is remembering you, and being with you. Father I cannot carry this burden anymore even though I feel like it’s a part of who I am, even though it’s hard to let Go off, Father I just want you to show me another perspective, your loving perspective. I want to be with you, so Father I leave this at your feet, you said your yoke was easy so take my burden. Amen." I hope that helps. But realistically I like to remember Matthew 11:28–30: Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light And I just give it to Him. trust that he will make new what is broken, trust that you don't have to carry that hurt yourself, simply lay it at his feet. And it might take time, just Trust in Him through these times and know that he loves you and that he dwells in you, and in the love that you are giving by even just simply making the effort