I signed up for the one that’s about to end. Unfortunately I didn’t do it everyday. I am going back to start it over since I can do the replays. It hits every area in life I need to work through. For me I learned my body resists change from the past because it’s familiar. The topics he hits on will fix that and this weekend I’m going to spend a lot of time going through them. I did the first 6 days and I can tell you it’s worth it.

@Rex R it is totally worth it. Me sticking to it is my own internal problem. I think my shadow is avoiding facing the reality and healing.

@T. Marie Kennedy I am learning it stems from my mom with woman and my dad with lack of masculinity. My dad was emotionally unavailable and showed no affection. My mom ran the whole household and played his roll as well. So I felt love was conditional. She was more a masculine roll than a feminine roll. Not much nurturing or affection and more disciplinary and manipulative to get me to listen. Then as a teenager I was picked on and bullied and rejected by girls. So my sexual lust and dominant style in the bedroom allows me to feel in control and then valued because they slept with me so I must be enough. I recently figured this part out and it shows a deep want for feeling seeing, valued and wanted for who I am. Really F’d up but I’m glad I finally know what to work on. I think it’s going to take time. I am working on forgiving my ex-wife and letting the anger and resentment go for her cheating and being narcissistic. I was used to chaos and need to remind myself I deserve love for who I am and don’t need to feel the need to prove myself if someone doesn’t align with me.

@T. Marie Kennedy that would be greatly appreciated

You just really opened my mind up to now wonder if this feeling of nostalgia I’m having is truly her feelings. Even though she moved on really quickly, I wonder if she keeps popping g up in my head so much is because I’m feeling her pain and she’s covering it up? I’m an empath too.🤔

@Nikki M not that it matters, she’s narcissistic and jumped right into something else. I’m just wondering if this is why. Possible I suppose.

Happy birthday

We as humans were not designed to eat meat. Our bodies don’t process it very well. But society thinks protein is key and that’s the base argument. But Preston is made up of amino acids as branching chained amino acids which plants have from my understanding. I am trying to go vegan but it’s taking time unfortunately. The religious fight it even and the Bible says in genisis that we are to eat plants. Jesus never sacrificed animals for food. Also, 3rd commandment say though shalt not kill/murder. Pretty plain and simole