"Don't believe everything you think." I say this to myself, often. Not sure who said it originally.

This past week sucked balls. When it came to my daily self cultivation I only managed to do the bare minimum which was my daily meditation and didn’t even do my daily morning journaling. This was comes after I had started to develop a morning routine that was working for me: up early, meditation and writing, off to the gym, home for breakfast and a shower, and then doing some work. I don’t know if putting together my new daily schedule and my business tasks in a project management doc set off an unconscious, very determined resistance from my inner rebel but whatever the explanation is all week I’ve felt incompetent. I’ve felt like a failure. And that led to feelings of frustration, disappointment and sadness. Every morning that I woke up and said to myself that today would be different and then wasn’t, pushed me deeper into despair. I wasn’t even able to muster up any self-compassion, which is usually the way I get myself back on track. I really wonder sometimes if I will always be stuck. Will things ever get any better?

Happy Saturday guys. For my daily cultivation I did 15 minutes of working on the course. Today was the top five values lesson (so far back, I know). I BARELY started the course anyway, so I'm almost caught up to where I was before. Doesn't matter now, just pushing forward. Same time tomorrow. Shoutout @Evan Seligman for being a great commitment partner. You're the bomb dot com