It’s been a while since I have posted an updated on my “journey” about spiritual awakening. Since I’ve fallen so much that I was set in a place where I was able to see the real damage I was doing to myself. And I’ve learned so much, to were I thought to myself, what could of made angels from God who were so illuminated by God fall. What deceived them so much that made them not look at God but at themselves, and to the knowledge I’ve received its: make them believe they are sleeping God. If you’re sleeping God you become yourself to be separate from that which is already in you. I’ve researched a lot about, divinity, and Earthly knowledge. And came to the conclusion that the earth has lots to teach a lot of paths you can take, but as I said. They are earthly, its knowledge that works for those who walk in the earth with goal to become something that God tells us to be careful of. And although it helped me for a while, it was fall after fall after fall. For a while I couldn’t understand why I would keep on falling if I was doing what was best for me. Then came the moment where I was defeated even when I tried to keep up with myself through the knowledge of the earth, I just couldn’t bare with myself. I was becoming that which I was scared to become. And thats when I realized that I was In a horrible path, I would believe in angelic numbers, would look for signs of where I should go, try breathings to bare with the hollowness, would leave it to the earth to tell me what exactly was going on. Would follow “spiritual teachers” which would teach earthly knowledge. Which all wasn’t from God or the Bible. The knowledge was so powerful and true (according to the world) that I just couldn’t understand what I was doing wrong. During that time I would still pray to God and pray and pray I kept my faith towards him. And although I felt like I wasn’t being answered I wasn’t able to see what he was doing with me. That’s when I opened the Bible and the first verse I read was to trust God with all your heart and not lean on your own knowledge. This changed everything, it showed me how wrong I was to look for knowledge that was not for me, knowledge that only leads to a stumbling path. Because you can’t follow God’s path for you and your own. You simply can’t, and yea you can choose which is why you have free will. But as a son of God and you can’t follow your own path. Because you put your understanding above Gods, you become lover of self, and get lost in this world. And that hollowness will never go away no matter what you try. You either follow Jesus Christ’s teachings the Bible or you don’t follow it, you either love God or hate him. There’s no in between. You can’t follow earthly teaching and follow God. There will always be something interfering and you’ll lay your knowledge over that (which are mere excuses). Ever since I then I kept reading my Bible everyday and every day getting closer to God. And I was able to defeat so many problems I was dealing with. I’ve grown so much in myself and in real teachings of God that I feel so great. The hollowness is no longer there and feel great about the path I’m going in rather than the stumbling path I was following. I truly hope all of you turn to God and not what the world has to offer, because you’ll never be happy, truly happy (if you are then remember there’s someone which is making sure of that, and it isn’t God). There truly isn’t any better written teaching than the Bible and I truly hope everyone gives there lives to God. May God guide your paths and be merciful with you all. Amen

I’ve been off of this channel for a while. I’m going through what feels like the most painful experience of my life right now, and I’m looking for some spiritual advice. I wake up every morning thinking about the betrayal and heartbreak, and my first thought is often, “I just want to wake up from this nightmare.” I haven’t been able to work properly, and this has been affecting me enormously. My life feels completely shattered. My best friend Matt and I have been close for 17 years. I trusted him with my life. He had been there for me through previous betrayals and had actually helped me heal from them, so I never imagined that he could be the person who would hurt me this way. I was in a relationship with Vanessa for about five years. It was a very deep, loving relationship, but also very unstable and painful at times. There was a strong push-pull dynamic. She told me many times that she loved me, that I was the only one, that she wanted to marry me and have children with me, and that she couldn’t stay away from me. We had many genuinely happy moments together. I have pictures of us laughing and being happy together that are very difficult to look at now. I was also there for Vanessa through some of the lowest periods of her life. I supported her when she was in the hospital for her mental health and when she was struggling. I believed in her and saw potential in her even when she was at her lowest. Eventually she ended the relationship and told me it was unhealthy for her and that she didn’t want to get back together. I struggled a lot with letting go because I still loved her and had hoped we could eventually work things out. I’ve been trying to work on myself, especially around attachment, my emotional reactions, meditation, surrender, and trusting God/the universe rather than trying to control outcomes. After our breakup, Matt needed a place to stay because of his work situation. He asked if it would be okay for him to stay with Vanessa for a maximum of three months. I said yes because I trusted him completely. He was my buddy and needed somewhere to stay. Her place was much closer to his work than mine, so it made sense. I also secretly hoped that having my best friend there might somehow help Vanessa and me find our way back to each other.

Hi, currently in my life I’ve been focusing on my looks and health it’s kinda weird because I been seeing progresss but when I stop doing that for 1/2 days I start noticing regression and that frustrates me…so idk if I should just let go or keep going 👁️

Hi, my name is Vicente, I’ve been following ray’s teaching over 1 year, currently I have voices in my head that tell me what people are talking supposedly about me, this is something that’s happening almost every single time that I spend ruminating on my thoughts, often they tell me awfull things that disorient me, but I know I will rise above it and that it is only a matter of time until I can control my attention and benefit of every situation that comes in my way of life.

Good afternoon everyone, this video, wow gods timing is amazing! I’ve always thought there was something wrong with me because I just was never able to have actual friends that I could sustain. But this video taught me about the Alfa and beta and turns out that yea I overthink everything before I do it, therefore sabotaging everything I did. Literally everything, realizing this right now makes me realize all the times I thought before I acted. This roots to my childhood, having only my mother present in my life, the lack of the male energy fucked me. Although I did notice a pattern in other kids when I was younger that other kids around me acted differently and just thought so much differently from me made me think I was incorrect most of the time. Although I lacked the male energy, I was able to “farm” a lot of the female energy, and it does have its advantages like, For me it was easier to talk to girls than talk to guys my age and for the longest time I went without knowing all this managing my life from a energy less source. But now in the present, I feel like I’ve gotten to the point were the balance of both energies are like very close to coming together. The video made me realize that I will act more and think less, I’ve been in my mind a lil too much it’s time move. God bless everyone.