Thank you @Bo Refec for using my comment in your videos even tho i was not expecting to be picked as a example i just wanted to have a real conversation about this topics i know is hard for people to sit down and see what we need to fix because some poeple go agasin't they own intrested, the more i grow up and understand how the world works i had a mentality as a young man that if everyone could get along and everything would be better but thats not gonna happen. And touching on the question self hate about skin, I had a reflection the reason I was having these thoughts was that I was consuming too much X/social media troll hate and trying to attribute that to every person I was encountering in the real world, and putting on my head that they hated me, but thats far from the truth and was the mentality aspect i was carrying, and that made me lose focus on my goals and made me less motivated to go to the gym. But after hearing what the brother from the community was saying, it made me delete social media and just consume good (real) content and forget about my skin colour. You right Bo we only have only one life. I wanna live my best i wanna honour those around me even if i start in my early 30 right now wouldn't matter because consistency, i will keep on track by getting back in shape keep on grinding 3 times a week on the gym and forget about the internet if im not, to only use to make money, if im using to cosume than im gonna become just another consumer. I know this is a long read, but I hope all the brothers out there who had this mental block like me or similar because of skin or any strugle, just fuck it, who gives a fuck do your best, be your best version, and show up for those who you like and love, and you will be remembered and your legacy (kids if you have) will remember you. And to leave on a positive note, I'd joined a Football group of friends ( soccer⚽ for Americans), and we are always having a blast moving and being active on weekends.