I am registered and I am seeing multiple videos, some of them I have watched and some I have yet to watch. Thank you!

Thank you Adrienne! Reading through and doing this and the other things you outlined in messenger helped me so much. While waiting for my daughter, at her Dr., I was able to move into calm and competent and maintain it and get some rest instead of being in pain emotionally and physically and spiralling. I moved and listened and journalled. I thanked Jesus for being my Souce. I used the Theragun repeatedly and relaxed more deeply into it than previously. I listened to the rest of my audio book. I laughed and cried and offered it up to Jesus. Which is not normal for me but very necessary for me right now. I received the gift of wholeness, enough to feel God is willing to be with me whatever the outcome on multiple issues hanging in the balance for my family, which closed some previously open tabs of stress. I started visualizing multiple paths to a positive future that is yet to be fully discovered. When I got home I spent time eating a snack in the sunshine. Then I put my house back together from the weekend chaos of me crashing hard with a migraine after church and people feeding themselves all over the house. They mostly cleaned up, but ten people mostly cleaning up after themselves is still mostly a mess. I called a friend who was key in my spiritual formation for years and let her know that I loved her and appreciate all the years that she has loved and prayed for me and told her that I feel she is part of this and with me even though it would be too strenuous for her to join us in person. She has always followed her own convictions and gone to Jesus as her Source of Love that she shares generously with everyone. This has led to her having a network of many dear friends who look to her for emotional and spiritual support even while driving her legally blind self to all the appointments and all the Drs. She has been living with and treating type one diabetes for 70 years, about twice her life expectancy at diagnosis. That's the power of love and how much medical technology has improved over time for diabetics, as well as meticulous self care. We all get tired of the limitations of her illness, but we all keep coming back for the joy of knowing her and being loved well by her. Today I let myself feel the grief of knowing that her years of going places with me other than the Dr. are mostly over. I want to bring her to the retreat. I have to tell her about it in detail instead because that would never work. I will eventually loose my best friend who has loved me and my husband and prayed for us and held us up through many seasons. I will loose my parents who are the same age. I may be lucky and get twenty more years. But it's time to stop limiting myself to things that I share with all of them. And also say thank you as often as I can and submit to the yoke of the increased care and decreased contributions from them. I don't have many friends in person. The ones I had I lost when I left my old church. I love my dad. I am grateful that he has decided not to curse me for making my own mind up about politics. He thought about it. I used to limit my posts based on not wanting to disappoint him. But it was time to stop being a child. I visited him on purpose to help after he was cold towards me. That's something that went well. Not something to bring back and keep worrying about what he's going to say.

Thank you yes. Ggghat did help me to connect to my emotions. The tears came down as I came to understand that I have not been alone. And I am being built into personal autonomy like I haven't had before.