I just watched a movie on Netflix about Aretha Franklin called "Respect" All the feelings. My eyes poured down tears multiple times.
At one point Aretha is portrayed breaking down during rehearsal before recording her timeless gospel record and saying in confidence to a friend "I can't break down like that in front of the cameras tomorrow. You don't understand. I have a demon and it's SO strong!" Her friend responded," Aretha you don't have a demon. You just have deep pain that you have been running from for SO so long! You are in church. You are in a safe place. The Spirit is waiting. This is what we are here for." And she sang her heart and created something that has blessed so many people.
This is what it feels like to me to find a path for reconnecting to the love of Jesus after religious trauma through Somatic Therapy. I have a safe place. I feel hope and purpose coming back into me.