I was late to the party on this one! I hope this will be available again as I would love to attend!

I was doing the day 7 healing audio and the word I was able to come away with was Patience. I did weep a little during the audio, specifically when calling in my ancestors and guides but it was not a sad weeping. More of a celebratory feeling of coming home if that makes sense. However, when I was being asked to name my gift, my throat became very constricted. Almost like my throat chakra felt squeezed and blocked. I tried to listen, but the only word that I received was patience. This occurrence has only happened one other time in a recent meditation I was doing in relation to releasing old patterns and emotions. I will redo the healing audio, but because of the experience I wanted to ask your thoughts on this. 💙

I most often felt ungrounded when things were not calm, when things or people are not transparent or there is a lot going on around me. Or if there are people that are very upset. Usually what triggers me feeling ungrounded is other people and the uncertainty in an environment or how I used to get swept away in others feelings/emotions (especially anger) and being reactionary instead of pausing, observing and coming from a place of clarity. Sometimes however, I do feel like I am picking up on emotions, information or physical things going on with people I care about in my life (or are connected with in some way) when they are not around me or I haven’t talked to them. My sister and I lovingly call this “our cord” so maybe I have one with everyone I care about…I don’t know. Or sometimes I have a feeling of something “impending” that I do not know what it is yet. I loved the excercise! I had a lot of tighteness in my diaphragm with a weird sense of urgency. Almost like an anxious feeling. After the excercise, it was gone and I felt peaceful, still and my body naturally took deep breaths. I loved the 4-7-8 breathing!

@Anthony Rios Appreciate your insight. One thing I have been working on lately in my life is noticing when this resistance comes up and to not run from it, but lean in. I have found many times that things I am resisting are actually things I need to pay attention to and be curious about the most. 🙏 I have especially enjoyed and regularly incorporate several of your audios. Especially the grounding one! ♥️

I love your no BS loving approach and saying it like it is! ♥️ Nothing about the sacred confirmation made me feel uncomfortable. While I am human, I have always tried to be the bigger person and live my life from a place of integrity. I don’t feel like I have the internal capacity to be anything else after the things I have gone through. I think a large part of me wants to be a healer just based off of everything that has happened to me in my life. I would love to extend help to others that have gone through or may be going through similar circumstances as I have. I have more recently had a rather significant experience that crumbled my identity to the ground, mentally, emotionally and physically, which was the catalyst that finally forced me to look within and start my healing spiritual journey. I have had a lot of wounds in my life (many losses, pain and betrayals) and from always feeling different, or like I could never belong no matter what I did. I was constantly minimized and made to shrink especially when I was younger because no one knew what to do with me or how to handle me. I carried that into my adult life, staying and playing small to try to make everyone around me feel or stay comfortable. People pleasing… self abandoning. NO MORE! I had always felt different and honestly alone around everyone most of my life. (Until I learned to come back to self) I have had many wounds that have taught me immeasurable lessons in my life and those are what has lead me to want to help heal others because I know so many are hurting in some of the same ways that I have. One thing that responsible healing to me looks like is putting “myself” entirely aside to assist another person in whatever healing it is they need. In the excercise what came up for me was being afraid of loss (whether that be myself or others) and also I think completely allowing myself to be seen/known. I don’t truly know if I ever have felt seen, but I have experienced a lot of negative things such as denial, being the black sheep, minimization, severe betrayal, control, purposely excluded, jealousy, abuse, projection, energy siphoning, disbelief, and poor treatment just to name a few. I have always striven to be a good person to all. I refuse to have a victim mentality though as not only does it not serve me, but then I would not be able to serve others that so desperately need it.

I appreciated the commitment statement on day 4. I kept it to doing this challenge, although I also incorporate daily mediation, breathwork and gratitude into my personal commitment to self growth daily. My untrained sensitivity has caused a lot of chaos and physical health issues in my life. There are places I could not go to or stay in due to overwhelm of some sort. Even if it was at a place that I really wanted to be. I carried a lot of anxiety in my diaphragm that I don’t believe was truly mine to carry for years, but it has dissipated so much since I’ve truly come back to myself instead of focusing on everyone and everything outside of myself. I learned to call my energy back and set boundaries which has helped me immensely. Before my boundaries were more of a suggestion, but I’ve realized that they cannot be so anymore.