@Franek Ptak i absolutely would love debating this topic with you because anyone could be right or wrong , besides , evil or chaos can rise from anywhere regardless of one's belief becauss its a human nature , a child may play harshly with a bird and cause its fragile body to break down or even kill it , but does that mean the child is inheritingly wrong or evil in any way ? , "ignorance" is the cause of that , and you may tell the child that playing with it that way will harm it and does it anyways because even when awareness is present understanding its full weight and being CONCIOUS with it and feeling its weight on you is enough of a reason to not even consider the action as an adult in the first place , which also explains why the weight of collective conciousness can seem to almost "blurr" or fade away , because if everyone does something even if its wrong or right , the weight will be shared and it will feel much lighter because its not you who's handling it all by yourself , you may never feel the weight at all if you happened to not think or reflect about ut intitially on your own , because no one will ever give you an answer that you can see as objective , objectivity remains supjective inside the realms of our own minds , no matter what is it if we were to dismiss or modify or support it we can do it , seriously , which is an even deeper topic to discuss , and keep in mind that if its done collectively upon populations then it can behave as truth itself , the line between truth and illusion starts to blurr in the mind. note : (its totally my own perspective and i'd love if somebody disagrees with me or has a different point , its all fun :).

@Franek Ptak you presented a good point i must admit , however i have to also mention that the world will always remain the same no matter what we think is true , just a few hundred years ago we thought physics was "solved" only for a slap from reality when science was revolutionized once again and new branches evolved that challenged every aspect of what we once understood , therefore we must keep in mind that we could both be wrong and truth could be something entirely different , hell , if we were a project in some lab developed by a species much more bigger and advanced that made some sort of stimulated world we wouldn't even know , but that also doesn't mean its right , humans possess something that we can't quite explain in modern language , for prophets it was holy books , for philosophers it was philosophy , for scientests it was science , therefore truth can be explained in many different pieces of languages that we developed to understand , humanity is still growing collectively therefore every single individsual can be seen as a "cell" that consctructs the bigger body of humanity as a whole , and its complex , a single cell could posess an illness , and another one could have a unique structure , but all of those develop the one big body for its function , does that mean an individsual has to submit himself to the belief that his spot could be replaced ? , yes , he can , but he can also refuse to be replaced and develop himself and shift history's trajectory as he can , and lets pause for a moment , right now when i tried explaining something complex as humanity and the world as we observe it we could notice that i might've used some strange poetic language , a body , a cell , nature , whatever i said it might not directly explain the point fully , therefore i could be wrong , but wrong is better than not even participating in trying to understand something , not that its determined that its now wrong forever , but opening a door to understand something is better than submitting ourselfes with a statement regardless , life is a journey , and we might totally disagree with our older selfes and so our younger selfes , but what we can do is TRY to understand something , even if it meant trusting something we don't quite understand , however that's not the only way , we could still try in many different actions and methods , that's what faith is for , not belief in something solely but putting faith and trusting its statement until further clarifications from our selfes , we are still behind as a species , we distract ourselfes with many things every single day , but that's only natural , for a cell can not entirely dictate itself over the whole body but work with it to solve its self.

oh i know EXACTLY how this feels , i can't describe how much i relate to this exact experience , but don't worry , either ways you'll be quite fine , you have all the time to think about this and weigh your choice , just do what your heart tells you and behave your action mindfully , if you want to believe in something then believe in it , i don't want to sound like someone oversimplifying somebody's struggles , but im genuinly only telling you what worked out for me personally , i went through this experience a few years ago and it totally took a hit on me and changed me alot , however you'll eventually find your path in life , even if you don't have a clue what you're doing , "just keep going" is a sentence that i tell my self often when i have these kinds of moments , just let your life happen and be present to live it and to shape it yourself , or to let it be in the way it flows naturally , in the end everything's up to you even if circumstances challenge you , your inner world will always be yours , the thing that you truly own is your life , and you are free to spend it your way , in your name or god's name or anything's name that'll only be yours to decide , even if your life was pre-written , the mere action of staying in the game is a statement of proof that you're doing what you can , and that is enough.

@Emanuele Dolcini i really get it , its so frustrating and confusing , and you really want to know what's true and what's is the right thing to do but everything could be wrong or right or complicated even , in the end , if its that fucked up and complicated then you might aswell just follow your own conciousness , see what's up with things and if you learn a thing or two then that's a win in a war that maybe we already lost by thinking there is perfection , nobody's perfect , we're all human , even the shitty ones , they are humans but representations of the worst parts in humanity , and even good ones are still humans representing the good parts , and most of us are trying to represent a bigger picture than simple good or bad stories , but we just want to live , and not risk being totally wrong and regretting it one way or another , we might aswell already regret a ton of things , but the best things we can do about them is learn from them and strive to do better , not perfect , but better than bad.