I do find it helpful that if it’s something I want or need that if I at least set the “best intention” (mentally) that it can help lessen the thoughts of any negative impacts. For all we know this woman with the accident could have been like “I need this money & I don’t care how I get it!” 😊

Not sure if anyone else is a Gemini (or Virgo) but Mercury forced a hard reset for me physically & energetically. I think there was so much energy being processed through old memories and new transformations that the friction made exhausted (and rather ill for a few days). So I went “dark”, like sometimes when you have to reboot an electronic device, it’s not a matter of hitting restart or powering off – you need to unplug it from the outlet. I re-centered, and found that silence was the best frequency for the time being. But just the other day – I feel like turned a corner.

Good Morning. Actually I’m going to chime in on this now, because I don’t see my situation really changing by the end of today. I have to say right now I am living in my body (somewhat painfully I might add). For the first time in a while, I am not wasting energy on my mind short cycling itself in the endless thought loops of: past choices, mistakes, arguments, relationships etc. So if I was a car, I would say the engine is running well enough for a long trip (just still not yet finely tuned). That said, even the best running car will only get so far if all the other parts are worn (i.e. brakes, shocks, tires – you get the idea). So this bad car analogy aside🤓, what I’m trying to say is with all the external and internal energy work I’ve done – I don’t think my body is in sync with my mind's level of awareness. So I have placed myself in a “spiritual pit-stop” to rest, repair and recalibrate on my journey. I know I’m guilty (at least initially) of getting so wrapped up in my mind looking for answers, that I have taken my physical body for granted. And as Ariella’s educated me on while energy is processed in the mind - it’s stored in the body. Releasing this stored energy (regardless of how much or how long someone has carried it) can make a person really uncomfortable physically, let alone unbalanced. With all of the ups and downs we experience on our path to awakening sometimes the best thing to do is nothing and just rest the body. I’ve come to realize the subconscious is infinite but we only get one (finite) body while we’re here. And realistically the body doesn’t ask for thoughts, ideas or emotions– just the proper care and rest. I’m not saying I’m lying around for 10+ hours like my cat, but I’m finding allowing myself to just “be” is helping.

So I think probably the hardest decision that hurt was (is) to draw a firm boundary and basically sever ties with my parents - specifically my father. Please know I did and say this without any anger, hatred or resentment towards him/them – but found it as a necessary act of love. I wasn’t physically abused, my parents weren’t drunks or anything negative like that - they did what they thought was right from their own level of awareness (which is low). Since birth we only know to trust our parents and most children (like me) do that. However, even those parents with best intentions can damage or suppress our external growth during our early, formative years. As I came into my own mindfulness, I became aware it is not about letting them live their truth through me, or helping them find theirs. They need to use their own free will and energy to heal and not try and manipulate or absorb mine. I think we’re conditioned since our parents brought us into this world we have keep them in our lives no matter what. But I have realized I was a soul before I was anyone’s child, parent, sibling, cousin or friend. I’m not saying everyone should abandon their parents or family in order to heal themselves. But for me this was one emotional hook that that I had to remove so I could grow in this incarnation. The pain is lessening - but it is a deep wound - that is healing.

Hi Everyone - I meant to respond sooner, but I’ve been digging out with the rest of NJ:) So for me, there wasn’t a specific “ah-ha” moment that I woke – it was really once I eliminated the Big 3 of: alcohol, drugs and cigarettes (sorry I know this isn’t an AA or NA group). But in all honestly I spent a lot of time stifling my frequency to make myself feel better (or so I thought). Once I eliminated the static/interference caused by those habits, I began to gain clarity in observing my life and nature. This allowed me to see all the breadcrumbs I left myself to find my true path – which I’m navigating now (with Ariella’s guidance and medicine). I’ve truly realized that every tear, bruise, smile or laugh has been intricately timed to come into my life at the right time (whether I wanted it to or not). I now understand these were to nudge me along to my truth - and it’s wonderful. That said, having learned what I know now, I am working on listening to and trusting my inner self, because that is where our true compass lies. I realize this is done through patience and awareness and not trying to control or force situations into place. While we all are connected to the same Light, we have all engineered specific experiences and people on our paths to heal us and (eventually) return to that Source. I understand sometimes I am going to fall down (make mistakes) on this journey and it can really hurt at times but each time I get up – I’m stronger than I was before I fell. Ultimately we are all here to elevate ourselves and those around us and shift the collective consciousness on a whole. That is an easy sentence to write, but a difficult task to carry out. Especially when it comes to releasing the energy of not only our past incarnations, but the ancestral energy we carry as well. But directly or indirectly we are here to help guide, educate and enlighten one another with our thoughts and experiences. So I look forward to sharing, learning and listening with all of you.

Hello Nicole - it's nice to connect with you here, looking forward to sharing our experiences.