⭐ what’s your BIGGEST insight from today’s call? Realising that I am at the mercy of everyone else's schedule and agenda and how difficult it is to find time for my own projects and how this is reflection of childhood patterns where I would always go with the flow to keep everyone happy especially my little sister who would kick up such a fuss if she didn't get her own way which in turn would anger my Mum and if Mama ain't happy, noone is happy. ⭐ what patterns did you discover from doing the personalized worksheet? I discovered from my worksheet that I have childhood patterns around being kept but not chosen, being quick to give but have resistance around receiving, that the way I was brought up was always going to have me standing on the outskirts of society looking in. ⭐ what did you learn from the worksheet and from Aaron AI? I learnt that to make the friends I desire and to be chosen and included that I need to feel the feelings of loneliness and not being chosen and to put myself and my business out there without the support of friends and family and to know that when a stranger buys one of my products at a market that it will be because they are choosing to and not because they feel any kind of obligation towards me which I have created by trying so hard to please and be useful. I have learnt that I need to pull my energy back, to visualise the me that is capable, powerful and considered an authority on the things I am trained in, someone who is seen as a responsible, knowledgeable grown up and not a silly little girl. Because I chose a different childhood pattern on my worksheet than the one that came up in the meditation I then asked Aaron AI how they relate to each other and of course they are related. I asked how I would fine time to become who I'm meant to be and the answer was all about boundaries, something I am working on everyday. I will continue to practice choosing myself. My biggest takeaway from this experience is realising that I don't need a network of "friends" who will by my products from me. I am good enough at what I do to put my creations out there for strangers to buy. If I choose myself first, others will also choose me.

Seriously if you haven’t filled out the identity worksheet you’re missing out. Don’t miss out! You’re worth it 💯! My main insight is knowing where my core identity stems from, childhood. If wanting something out loud gets it cancelled, then I’ll stop wanting it out loud. If needing care gets me in trouble, I’ll become the one who doesn’t need much. If my excitement makes trouble, I’ll dim it before it shows. The helper, the strong one, the easy one who doesn’t need much. Three costumes, one decision made a long time ago. My take away from this #Day1HW. The good things are mine to keep. My excitement is safe out loud. I don’t have to take it away first. Sending each and every one of you tons of love and an abundance of light. 🫶🏼🙏

During the breathwork, it came to me to accept leaning on others and recieve more. I am not so good at receiving. Breathwork is a very good calming exercise. I almost feel like I've done all the healing I can do. I have been expressing myself for a while now, setting boundaries, not caring about what other people think, embracing imperfection. But I will not be vulnerable with people who have put me down repeatedly. I can be vulnerable with people who I know will guard and respect my vulnerability. I'll see the AI app for a stretch exercise.

It so happens that I already did a stretch today. I have told my mother what the results were in the rapport and the chat with Aaron AI. I had to say something that would be hard for her to hear. (she is 82 years old and I am her first caregiver). I found it scary because I like to avoid creating and or feeling tension in others. Still I told her that I have developed a pattern being alert all my life because of the behavior of my dad getting very angry and of her not stepping in to protect us. It was good to talk to her about it. She responded feeling guilty, I honestly could say I was not angry or anything I just felt sad for the little girl and wanted to get it out in the open that I was dealing with this now and letting her know that it was possible that I am going to react differently in situations from now on. I find comfort in this experience, it was less scary than I thought it would be and this experience gives me more space for my 'new' me. Now I want to try it out on others hahaha.

What’s your biggest insight from today’s call? My biggest insight was seeing the shift in the live coaching where Jenny went from being in her head to being present in her body. That change in her presence made her feel magnetic. You could see the difference in her eyes and her whole body posture. What did you learn from the worksheet and from Aaron AI? I survived my childhood by becoming the “sunshine” child. I never had needs, stayed positive, and took care of everyone else. When asked what I feared would happen if I let that identity go, I realized I was afraid I’d become invisible. The irony is that this survival strategy is exactly what’s keeping me invisible as an adult. I’m afraid to take up space or let people see the real me, so I keep ending up in relationships, work, and situations where I give so much effort and feel like I receive nothing in return.