Alright y'all we got a few new members and I thought it's be a good chance to to do a community check in! If you're new, would you introduce yourself? Stake your claim! WHO ARE YOU? If you've been here for a while...sound off! What have we been exploring? What experiences are we integrating? What challenges/obstacles are we running into? Where could we use support or inspiration? I'll start... I'm exploring a deep identity shift. It's been shaking me to the core for the last year now, and I'm finding there's a deep grief process involved in that. And then to reflect that internal dying/death/grief with the passing of my dog this week has added a whole new level. In the 3D I'm integrating a new stream of income as a contractor for a health company (FDN - Functional Diagnostic Nutrition). In the multiverse I'm integrating a recent fungi experience that brought back a recurring theme of paranoia and fear. This is certainly one of the themes that Altered State Explorations can produce. It's not my first time with an experience like this but it's been a while so I've been taking a closer look at, and integrating that experience. The biggest challenge I'm facing is balancing 3D responsibilities, with my personal and physiological processes (which has been very lethargic and internal). There's a depth of FEELING that I'm being asked to access and that has been one of the biggest learnings of this period. As far as support I would simply love to hear what everyone else is experiencing and observing. Rangers of Conscious.....report! Thanks and I Love you all.

The pain of our predecessors lives within the coding of our DNA. This is well established in clinical circles. And indigenous cultures knew it long before it was ever published in a peer reviewed paper. I just watched the series 'American Primeval' on Netflix. (I watch TV maybe one day a month and this was what I watched earlier today and it served as a nice reminder as to the BRUTALITY of our species evolutionary history- unlike any other species on the planet.) Animals eat and get eaten, yes, but the birds, bees, grass and bears have not had all out wars with their own species that spans continents. Our bodies have not forgotten this. And right now at an evolutionary time in our species story, we have NEVER been safer. What happens when we finally become safe (especially after hundreds of thousands of years of unsafety) our body begins to release the physical, emotional & psychological pain that's been locked away and left unprocessed. Hint: it was originally locked away for the purpose of being able to do what was needed in the moment to survive. So if you are experiencing some sort of pain or dis-ease that you can't explain or don't know why, instead of avoiding and running from it because it doesn't have a name or you don't know where it came from or what caused it, slow down, ask it what it needs. And do your best to give it to yourself. Who knows what's on the other side of it (probably peace and purpose) but either way I invite you to get curious, be courageous, turn and face it. Go inward. Into your Inner Wilderness. And ultimately- report back what you found.

Alright everyone I recognize I have not been active on here and delivering value of any sort. Why? Because I've been integrating. I've been in my own process for the last year (hint: I'm always in a process of evolving but there are certain processes that are initiated by certain life experiences/changes). And I wasn't integrated in a way that allowed me to fully show up in a committed fashion to this community space. So what I'm starting with is a post to talk about just that- Integration. A word that gets thrown around a LOT (especially in Psychedelic and Healing spaces) and I've yet to hear many detailed descriptions or definitions for that word. So I'm gonna start by offering mine: Integration - The coherent combination of pieces, parts & facets to create a cohesive functioning whole that serves a desired purpose or intention. Example- A car is an incredibly well integrated whole - made of thousands and thousands of parts and pieces that are seemlessly combined to serve the purpose of getting someone from point A to point B. So in the context I'm using it, I've been integrating - or making coherent sense of my life experiences, meanings, reflections, learnings and lessons as well as my inspirations (including my inspiration for making this Community Container) in a way that's cohesive and functions to serve a desired purpose or intention. My purpose and intention is First and foremost to care of myself and my needs and desires (physically, emotionally, materially, and spiritually) and then secondly to serve others. So while I've been taking care of the first part of that purpose, I wasn't able to show up and fulfill the second half of that purpose- serving others. So here I am to do exactly that. Let me know if this definition resonates with you and if you have your own meaning or definition for the word INTEGRATION. By offering it up, we can integrate various meanings and definitions and combine them in a coherent fashion to serve our own unique desires and intentions.

In sequence of my post last week around chaos and entropy, here's a maturation process that I'm in right now around the power of NO. As much as our inner child may not want to hear "No", whether it comes to an indulgent distraction, or a soothing external influence/substance. Much of our Personal Creationary Power comes in the form of a Loving 'No'. Saying No to distractions, vices and crutches. Saying No to the lies we tell ourselves and choose to believe. Saying No to people, activities and pursuits that aren't in alignment with our values and priorities. Saying No to invitations, opportunities and experiences that don't support our growth. Saying No is just as crucial as saying yes. And by process of elimination, the more things we say no to, leaves a short list of things worth saying yes to. No is a boundary. No is a 'that's not for me'. The more people and places we put a boundary up around with No, the more energy, focus and concentration is able to be potentiated toward the areas and arenas where we say YES to. Where in your life are you ignoring the whisper saying 'no'? Where in your life are you saying yes to something that you know is a no? For what purpose are you saying yes? Is it to please someone? Is it to distract yourself? Is it to sabotage your efforts? Is it to soothe yourself? Ask yourself these questions and listen for the answers. And as always would love to hear what your all's experience is and relationship is to 'NO'.

Well I went dark there for a while and because I didn't intend to I apologize for my absence. I'm back from my own internal explorations and have LOTS to share. Here's one of the big core themes: Chaos and Entropy. TLDR; -How disorderly and chaotic is your internal state of being: physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually? -How disorderly and choatic is your external world: your physical living space, the sequence of events in your Life, your relationships etc? -How would your level of ease shift if you brought more order to yourself and your life? -The shortcut: stillness and attention to your breath. In Depth Exploration; These are two topics that I'm getting really interested in as I deepen my meditation practice and desire and commitment for more stillness in my Life. It feels like the more entropy or chaos or 'dis-order' I have the greater dis-ease and distraction I have from my desires and my purpose (which are slowly becoming one and the same). Have you ever noticed that elevated, high frequency-energetic states like focus, Love and joy have a certain level of singular focus? Where your mind and being is more present, more focused on a singular subject. Compare this however to lower frequency states like fear, shame and guilt and there is a much more scatteredness or disorderliness to our attention/focus, even rumination. Thoguhts of the past (typically association with depression) and thoughts of the future (typical of anxiety). In these states, the disorderliness and chaos of our internal state of being including repressed emotions, self criticism and shame, unsafety and fear- can actualy create different physical outputs or expressions. In anxiety the disorderliness leads to high physical output (pacing, visual scanning, fidgeting, unattentive) while in depression it leads to low phyical output (tiredness, low motivation and mood, physically sedentary). To contrast, in 'flow states' or states of great peace or presence there is a more laser like sense to them. What is that?