Hello, my name is Susana. I'm 21 years old, trilingual, and still learning more languages—I’m a huge language enthusiast. This year, I’ve truly connected to God as part of my self-discovery journey. I’ve been praying before every meal with gratitude for everything, and having these mind-opening conversations with myself and God. I’ve never been happier... but I also struggle with understanding who I truly am. I feel I’m someone easily influenced, like a chameleon that changes with every connection. I consider myself a very empathetic person; to me, there’s no strict right or wrong, and I know human beings are naturally contradictory. But often, I change my own conceptions or ideas after listening to someone or even after watching videos online. It’s as though my own ideas aren’t strong or convincing enough for me. I don’t really like this idea of being “not authentic” or “not myself,” and I wonder if I’m people-pleasing—though it doesn’t entirely feel that way either. Does anyone understand what I’m trying to express? Is it wrong to be easily influenced? I’ve been writing a lot about my own ideas and trying to form a clearer concept of what I believe. But I still have this feeling that maybe the things that Im writing are not really myself.. maybe I’m not really myself. 🤔 (maybe iam overthinking)

My dads side of the family all had acne growing up, it was a phase and it eventually went away in their late adult hood. I myself break out everywhere at times and have been dealing with skin issues since I was a teenager, and I’ve tried everything in the book to cure it once n for all, eating healthy not eating processed foods and exercising, balancing my hormones etc, etc these actions help, but it’s never truly gone away fully. I sometimes wonder if acne is a generational curse or I wonder if maybe acne is just a manifestation of suppressed feelings? There is more to acne than just acne. people tell me It is just genes and some people just have “the acne gene” but I don’t believe that’s true. Anyone else have any ideas on what causes this? I don’t want a topical cure I’ve tried all… I need a spiritual cure

Ive been working on being as authentic as possible and not take actions thru insecurity, or fear or anger or thru trauma ive issued with before. 2 days ago i felt like i clocked it, that i understood it i almost felt like crying, i had no social anxiety going to the near by shop talking to people on the way, showing love to my loved ones, didnt get angry when i lost playing video games, i had no fear of the cops pulling me over etc, it was like heaven on earth truly. Fast forward couple days later i find myself falling back in to the illusion, i hear a doubt i my mind ”what if you did not come over your traumas”, ”do you even remeber what you learnt” etc, my question is how can over come this? And is it even possible? Is this the game that god has laid out for us? Im sure its sounds familiar to someone here, i would love to hear how have you dealt with it. Peace and love, dont forget to be real🫡

But when you get it the box is empty because everything is empty and you've been enlightened the whole time