I was close to jacking it all in!
Hormone changes have been hitting me hard over the last few weeks! Maybe perimenopause, maybe menopause creeping in, whatever it was, it was a storm I couldn’t control, and I got very close to jacking it all. Business. Content. Goals. As a woman with ADHD I am used to dealing with brain paralysis, I have learned to live with it, accept it and go with it BUT this feeling was a whole new level of F*** it all, I can’t do this. It felt like my mind had been stolen by something I couldn’t get a grip on which was crushing me, my confidence, my zest for life, my emotions and my energy. I was crumbling and desperately wanted to hide away as it felt impossible to stop the war that was raging in my head. As most of us do, somehow, I managed to carry myself through and even did a photo shoot for my new upcoming podcast series and you can see the pain behind my smile. The tiredness, the puffy eyes, the self-doubt, the weight of it all. But I did it when I really didn’t want to and I feel proud of that. Thankfully the life assassin has done one and has given me some relief this week. I am not here with words of wisdom, I just wanted you to know that you are not alone! DO NOT GIVE UP, even when the life assassin is telling you to! Anyone else been feeling the same lately? Drop a ❤️ or share your experience below so we know we’re not alone. Love Chloe xx