Thanks for the reply, Lee. I want to clarify that I have given up on the twin flame connection. It hasn’t been easy as I find myself checking social media things from time to time like I’m trying to get a dopamine hit. I feel ashamed that I’ve struggled with the letting go of this relationship and kept it going for too long, way past its expiration date. At the same time I understand it was my creative way of creating connection when I couldn’t - I met him right before both my parents died a week apart and at a time in my life when I had done a great deal of self healing. I even experienced a spontaneous kundalini awakening. Thanks for helping me see, know and feel that the time is now for me to step into the light and into true connection with my self.

Thank you. Thank you for helping me see my self more clearly through a lens of Love. Just reading this reply I feel so seen and loved in a way that I haven’t felt in a very long time. Tears bringing a much welcomed feeling of relief. I haven’t allowed myself to be loved by myself and others. I used to understand but have forgotten how and why my nervous system continually keeps me in a fear loop of freeze and fawning. Have gone back to people pleasing and the things as it’s been easier. Attachment wounds from childhood and adulthood. I had this realization earlier this year that in order to see ourselves we need relationship with others. To see the reflection. I’m receiving all these “epiphanies” and understandings as I type this!! I’ve been in the spiritual closet and have been wanting to come out and share myself. I also know that such a thing can’t be forced.i also know that everything happens right on time, when you’re dancing with the divine. I haven’t found many lasting, true relationships since my parents died (and might I add I was divorced a year prior to that - tomorrow is my divorce anniversary!) however I feel that’s changing. Deep in my bones there’s been a quiet transformation taking place. Thank you for being a part of this process!

Thank you for sharing and helping me remember the things!

Living with uncertainty and unknown can be destabilizing, especially for those of us who are experiencing life through a PTSD nervous system. Have a personal understanding from my own experience in being human with the PTSD and neurodivergent things.