Hello, I used to feel weird when i realized my true nature in the same way. Not just "I AM" but just any sentence that had "I" felt off. That is a good sign you are awakening to your true nature. The next realization you come to after that is so beautiful and funny, in a cosmic way. You see how the universe is playful. You realize that what you need to do is not reject the role you had been playing but go back to playing it, with your new knowledge that you are the actor, not the role you are playing.( In fact you are also the role you are playing as you are everything, because you are one with the source. Don't use your mind to understand these concepts and don't force them). It is weird to explain this because words and thoughts can not capture it. It has to be experienced. But it should feel playful, moving, and all the good stuff. You become part of this cosmic play, once you see it and you start experiencing it and boy is it the best. It's magic. It's the kingdom sensei talks about. And you are part of it. You bring the kingdom to the world because you see the world through the eyes of your spirit, god, not your mind or body. And you should also be able to still see through your mind's eye but not be deceived as you see even through that with your spirit, which connects the dots between what you and I said. I want to also add something, if you get to this state there should be a completely naturally formed smile on your face, but even if it doesn't show on your face you can feel you spirit is smiling. I call it the cosmic smile

@Paul Hedron Thank you for your offer. Actually I'm 20 now and have since a kid felt a 'calling'. But for the time being i know my next step-to keep doing what I've been doing. Which is evolving. I do think time will come when i do something but that is currently not concerning me, although i do think about it at times. I've never done drugs, my mind seems to have had the natural ability to go deep, first showing ~5years ago( first encounter with the abyss/void). Basically my intuition is what has brought me to this point, and i intend to follow it, the path will reveal itself, as it has been doing until now. About loneliness, i used to feel it deeply at times. After awakening integration, that was gone completely among other things. I do not care if people understand what i understand. I'm actually more functional now than i ever was, which is another weird awakening paradox i guess. I can connect deeper, not less. Of course, I still pick my people. Man its weird talking about myself like this, im describing my ego character that has been given to me. I think of that Jim Carrey quote " I used to be a guy experiencing the world, now i feel like the world/universe experiencing a guy". And i think that may be an interesting insight to your question about why some people awaken early while others not. I also believe such questions can not be answered from the mind if at all, but I'm sure you know that.