I had another strange dream last night, and it has me wondering if there is something my subconscious or perhaps something deeper, is trying to tell me. For quite a while now, I’ve noticed a recurring theme in my dreams. I am always searching for somewhere I can be completely alone and private, usually because I need to take a shower or use the bathroom. But I can never find anywhere. There are always people around. Bathrooms have no privacy, showers are exposed, people can walk in, or there is simply nowhere I can go where I can close a door and be completely by myself. The longer I search, the more anxious I become. There is this growing feeling of desperation: I just need somewhere private. Another strange recurring part of my dreams is my eyes. 👀 My eyes are closed, or almost impossible to open, yet somehow I can still see what is happening around me. I keep trying to force my eyes open, but they feel incredibly heavy. I am exhausted and struggling to stay awake or fully present, even though I am still moving through the dream and somehow seeing everything. Then last night, in the middle of all of this, something completely unexpected happened. I was looking at a table when suddenly a kitten dropped out of it. 🐱 I immediately called him Sherlock. He was orange and white stripped with blue eyes. Strange right? Then I started thinking that if I were going to keep him, I should probably give him an Irish name that would go with Finnegan, my existing cat. And apparently my dreaming brain thought this was perfectly reasonable. 😂.. But underneath the funny parts, the recurring pieces are really starting to bother me. Why am I always searching for privacy? Why am I constantly trying to find somewhere I can shower, go to the bathroom, or simply be alone without someone being able to see me? Why can I see perfectly well when my eyes are closed? And why am I always fighting so hard to open them when I am absolutely exhausted? Then, in the middle of that anxiety and searching, why does this tiny unexpected kitten suddenly appear?

When you look in the mirror you never see anyone else but you. When you look out into the external world you see a direct reflection of everything you believe, what you have consistently felt and what you persistently expect. If you believe life is hard, your experiences will be perpetually challenging. If you feel what you want is elusive your experiences will be full of lack. If you expect specific results and they are not realized you will experience more opportunities to perceive failure. In other words, your external world is a direct reflection of your internal world. It is the mirror and a mirror can only reflect, not contrive. When you begin to shift your internal conversations you will shift the external world. Will it all change when you deem it should? Probably not. The changes manifest at the perfect moment. Trust the process–not the timing. The next time you have cause to look in the mirror—remember—you only ever see YOU. YOU are the change.

PART V My Journey with the Council of 12 - Channeling In the late 1980s and early 1990s this is where things became very, VERY interesting! It seemed the C12 had volumes to teach and as always, I was a willing student. Living in my condo and working a very stressful full time job, my leisure time was all-important to me. Not only was I working a full time job but was running a side business (mediumship and spiritual guidance), seeing clients on evenings and weekends. I so loved languishing after a long day and spending every spare moment reading, writing and researching information that had come to my awareness. Life was good! I was learning and growing and I truly felt I was in control of the way it was all unfolding. I was wrong. One evening, I decided not to research, write or anything else that required mental stimulation. After an unusually long day I ate dinner and simply turned on the tv to watch something mindless. Try as I might, there was absolutely nothing that held my interest whatsoever. I thought perhaps I was having an issue decompressing so decided to make myself a cup of tea. Typically, sipping on something hot as I relaxed was enough to do the trick and I could settle. Oddly, while making tea I noticed arbitrary words running through my mind. I dismissed them at first until I realized they had a specific rhythm. It caught my attention as I walked down the hall to retrieve a blanket and pillow to nestle into on the couch. I thought it was so strange and again attempted to dismiss it. Once settled with tea and comfort I began watching a show and again, it held no interest and by this time I was becoming quite annoyed. I turned off the tv and thought I would just read a book. As I started reading the words started going through my mind. Becoming more and more annoyed I decided to put the book away and simply listen to some music. I laid on the sofa listening to soothing tones and suddenly the words were back. What on earth was happening! I fetched a pad of paper and a pen and thought, “Okay. Now I will write the words down when I notice them and then perhaps it will go away”. It was my experience with Spirit messages that if I couldn’t readily understand a word or a picture it would spin in my brain until I spoke of it. Once spoken, it seemed the spell was broken and I could move on to different messages. Perhaps the insistent words in my mind would behave the same way.

Join me on Zoom, Saturday, September 12, 2026 at 12:00 PM (PACIFIC) for a Gathering with the C12! We will be open to discussing what is important to you--be it your personal journey; current Energy, the I AM--anything that is on your mind. Bring your insights; questions, and experiences you would like to share. It is by sharing that we all learn and grow! Here is the Zoom link: https://us02web.zoom.us/j/82725436789?pwd=XJg1TbbqbjMobimaLS1gzfxIzjvjow.1

Just for today…..instead of planning, anticipating and fretting about tomorrow or next week, just BE. BE in the moment where nothing is urgent. There is only a certainty that knows without doubt that all unfolds perfectly. When you are BEing, you are immersed in your power where all things are possible. BEing allows perfection to flow. Trying to achieve a perfect plan is telling Source YOU are attempting to override its perfection. The external world has conditioned humanity as to what is important; what is necessary, and keeps you stressed. The internal world is peace; unconditional love of all things, and most importantly–clarity and trust. To live in the internal world allows you to live life deliberately; effortlessly, and in joy. You will know exactly which world you are paying attention to by looking at your life. Your life, as it is, is a direct reflection of your internal world. Living from the internal world…go ahead…just for today….give it a try.