Feelings are meant to just be a 90 second wave?!
I recently learned that apparently each feeling is only meant to last 90 seconds if we feel it properly and fully at the time it arises and don't supress it! It certainly has never felt 90 seconds to me! I have come to realise I struggle to sit with myself even to eat without scrolling or looking at a screen. So I am attempting to retrain myself to be disciplined to sit in the discomfort without any form of stimulation or distraction. Just me myself and I. The external distrractions of the world particulary screens with the addictive instant hits of dopamine have shunned and quietened my intuition so I struggle with self trust and making decisions. I have also notice I am numbing my emotions and not processing them properly. I guess I am scared once I feel them and open the floodgates (maybe quite literally with tears) than it will be endless which of course isn't true. I want to change this, I want to let my intuition, my inner wisdom and my body lead me in full trust. I want to make sure I stop suppressing, bottling and numbing. We all know what happens if we leave the tap running, ,more and more water is added but the cup cant hold it all it overflows... And if we dont feel an emotion, well an emotion is energy and it has to go somewhere so it stores in the body. Physically in the tissues and organs. The body has to carry that weight. So this practice I am trying is part of this attempt to stop bottling my emotions. I haven't done it loads as of yet because my brain wants me to avoid it. Like I said doing nothing when you are used to constant stimulation and doing feels alien and uncomfortable its outside of our comfort zone where our brain likes to keep us! The practice: Its not refined, its messy, it changes but its a work in progress and its a step in the right direction. I lay down and relax, sometimes i do it seated but I lay down and completely relax. I just breathe and stare up at the ceiling to give my brain a break from constant stimulation and doing. I than ask myself how I am feeling? No really how am I feeling? I assure myself and my body its safe to feel. I name those feelings out loud. Usually something will come up from the past, unresolved wounds and traumas. Than I invite my inner child in and i ask her how this thing made her feel, why did it make her feel like this, why did it get to her so much? I have a conversation with her in my inner child, I assure her ive got her, its okay, she is doing well. I visualise her crying and releasing the emotions. I ask my body to show me where these feelings are physically stuck in the body. And I remina in the discomfort and feel them with love and patience and compassion. Than I reframe thoughts and beliefs that come up to challenge the negative thoughts, I reframe them with Little Amanda. I ask her questions. I tell her she is seen, she is heard, she is valued. Than I let it go. Now I have noticed I cant always completely release something in one session of doing this.I try different ways of release that feel right using crystals, healing sound frequencies and music, cord cutting, physical somatic release like shaking etc; I haven't yet paired this with journalling but I think it would be a good idea too!